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2012-01-28T10:51:00.002+08:00

Oh well, finally things are getting more settle down.. Grandmother's wake has over and left are the prayers. I would like to thanks to my colleagues who have been so patient with me and yes, my friends. They have been sending me msges and I do appreciate it.. seriously!

Work is doing great, however I am still learning even though I am already in the force for almost 2 years. It's like so fast.. everything seems to be like just happen.. LOL..

Some updates from my side, I have been training up as my next financial year IPPT coming and therefore, I decided to join dragonboat and more marathons. So before the dragonboat training starts I went for swimming which I have stopped for a year. Due to pneumonia I had one year ago as such, I stopped and then, my stamina went down. Even though, i still can run long distance but my timing seems to be not improving. So, I take up swimming again as this will let my stamina go better.

This few days been swimming. and swimming does relax me abit and bring all my troubles away. Yesterday, as usual I went swimming and this time I swam for 2 hours instead of normal one hour. Maybe, this few days combine with swimming and running my stamina does improve. Hence, I can swim longer.. I swim till not much people in the pool and the lifeguard was worried for me as I don't swim straight and a few times I have to stop in the middle of the pool. As I feel sudden tired..

So, one of the lifeguard came to me and tell me I should stop as he worries that I may just drown. So I heed his advise and stop.. And, I didn't realised that I had SUNBURN! OMG! my scalp, hands, body are all sunburn! It's really pain when the water touch to my skin.. SOB..

But still, it wouldn't stop me to swim.. After I bath, I went for a walk and intend to eat before going home as I am so hungry after the swim. While walking around. there's a boy who is like secondary school came to me and asked me for number. Even worse, he was smiling.. I was thinking I am so old and he wants my number.. what's up to his mind. So I just walk off without replying.

Then, I head to food court and I found this lovely place namely, "Pinch a salt" which is soo cute and the food was nice and cheap. I have took some photos, here are the photos that I have took:

The pasta that I've ordered and total cost with the drink is $7.70!!

If interested the location is at:

Toa Payoh HDB Hub

Gourmet Paradize

Pinch a Salt

(Once you get down to the escalator, the small "cafe" is at a corner with one traditional eatery)

So after eating I went back and first thing my sister screams and said that I looked so tanned and I am a 100% Malay now! -______________-"'

I was -____-" and then, I asked my maid to get my some cream that I bought it few months ago in the fridge. And, it does make my skin better without much pain.. Now my skin is better but still have some pain on the back. As my back most of the time facing up as I was swimming frog style.. FML.. I have to tolerate few more days before it recovers.. LMAO.. Got to rest now.. I am so tired..! =P

2012-01-14T22:52:00.003+08:00

Feel so bad for not been updating my blog. Been busy and partially I am lazy in updating as many things been happening. Nothing happen good for me. I was admitted to hospital during Christmas Eve and realized that my health is going downhill even I am doing exercising. But I am going for follow up. I am not going to say what I am having until further test has been done.

Then, I was been told that my grandmother was not feeling well and been travelling up and down to hospital. And, those who have my FB should know. As well, should know that my grandmother just passed away. It was heat breaking and recalled the days with her and the things she said really break my heart.

Till now, I am still coping with it. To date, I've yet really cry as I do not wish anyone to worry for me. Especially, my family..

No matter what, I will still try to cope whatsoever coming to me.. During the funeral, I was not really in good mood as my relatives really provoked me to the extend that I cried. As many things they are unaware of and tries to act as though they know me well. I dislike this kind of things. But however, I still try not to scold them or even raise up my voice. But I did show my unhappiness. Also, in the funeral I got closer with my younger cousins and get to play with them. It's make my mood slighter better. With them around does make my day...

However, I still can't get along with my second younger sister. She at times, she's really a pest who irritate you to a max. And, the way she talks to me is totally unacceptable to me. She wants people to help her but she don't help you unless there she gets something. Which irks me alot..! Also the way she show also make me piss off..

Well, I don't want to bother her anymore. I shall let her go and suffer until she realize what's right or wrong...

Hmm.. I am so tired to type further as these few days I have been driving up and down and almost got a few times of accident. Ok, I shall go and rest and tmr I have work to do.. byee.. that's all for now..!

2011-11-11T21:40:00.002+08:00

I am now in a mix feelings.. I've a friend who just had relationship issue with his gf then suddenly mentioned things that which scares me a lot. It relates me to my previous relationship, which my ex put me into difficult position. And, no doubt how bad was it I still standby him. When everything goes sour and lead to break up which still fresh in mind.

Many has asked me when am i getting a bf? My answer is "Let nature take it's course" but I know there are people want to know me. But it's just stop me from doing it..

My heart hurts a lot.. a lot.. It's like never ending pain in me. When people confess or hinting me, I go backwards. I am scare, I am really scare.. Many things happened to me, which still fresh in my mind. Many times, I teared unknowingly even one time, I was working and my colleague played songs which really reminds me about what happened in the past. Which caused me nearly teared.

Sorrows whereby I doesn't know whom should I tell to.. I tried to forget but I simply can't.. One of my lovely colleague tell me to relax, I am trying, I am trying really hard.

Due to what had happened, It's make me hard to believe. I doubt a lot.. seriously! To a extend that I cannot believe anyone. Answer is just so simple, I scare of been hurt again. I can't afford to get hurt anymore. Really..

I lost a lot of things.. It's hard for me to stand from where I fall.. It took me long time to stand and I am still trying. No matter, how I try to smile to people or make people laugh but inner me is not that happy. Making people happy rather than let them know I am actually not. I am not a person who is strong. I am a fragile person like a glass. When it breaks no matter how I mend it will be a wound/scar in me. The pain in there never goes away.. I'm still feeling pain..

2011-11-05T01:25:00.002+08:00

Few days back before heading to Halloween event, I've met up with my friend who long years staying in Aussie. We have made an agreement to come out for photography session and yes, we made it!

We decided to meet up at City Hall, as it will be easier for us to travel to ACM. I also intended to meet up with Ying Zi, dream. But she was not free on that day.. =(

We head to Funan the IT mall first, as John wants to get his stuff first and then we head to Esplanade and along the way we took some photos. *PS. I'm using Canon 550D, kit lens 18mm-55mm*

He also taught me a few tricks on taking photos which makes the whole photos looks much nicer. He also explained to me about lens and what kind of lens will produce what kind of effects. Which I really learned a lot.. I also used a few tricks and here are some photos taken under his guidance..

After taking a few photos, the bad things happened was the rain came!! Luckily, nearby there is a bridge where we can shelter. But nevertheless, we still managed to continue to take photos even the rains pouring..

We also see people skating and it's seem fun, and we started to take photos on them too..

After the rain, we managed to take even more photos and here are the photos that I've took and under john advise..

My shifu!! John.. LOL!

After which, we slowly head to ACM as we discovered that it's about time. While walking, both of us discovered the contrast of the sky was good to take photos and john taught me about back light. And the photos turn out to be ...... SUPERB! simply love it!!

Nice right?? I seriously fall in love with all this effect.. Also after the event was over, John also used his speedlite (which is a external flash for DSLR and it's manually you need to adjust the brightness urself) to create back light effect and asked me to edit the photos to make the effect even more..NICE! Here is the edited photo:

Here is also the unedited photo which I like the 3D effect!!

And, after the event both of us head home. I really enjoyed the day with John aka Shifu. It's great to learn so much things from him, he knows a lot of photography and I would to thank him for guiding me! We shall meet again ya!! Love even more with photography~ That's all folks!

2011-11-05T01:17:00.003+08:00

Advertorial

SPI once again have seminar with OPSRI! And this is the second time we have the same seminar due to good feedbacks from members who have joined previously.. Once again , we would like you to join us in our "Exorcism VS Possession" come and register to "register@spi.com.sg" now!! Seat are limited!!

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Currently, we have less than 10 seats left.. Hurry if you are interested!!

2011-11-05T00:59:00.003+08:00

Some days back we had Halloween night which I've advertised on my blog previously.. And we were well-received! Can't imagine we can have so much crowd!..

Well of course, we were delighted to see them here to participate the event. Moreover, It's free entry! I will post some photos to let you guys enjoy!! *Only limited photos will be posted here, for more you may interest to view from SPI facebook"

For more photos you can review from our SPI facebook and if you are interested to know about our events or any updates you are welcome too!!~

I also would like to take the opportunity to thank all who had turn up for the event and also to all cos player from SPI.. You guys done a great job!~

2011-10-20T18:21:00.003+08:00

Advertorial

You guys should know Halloween is coming right??!! As an SPI Agent, I would like to invite you to 2 events which upcoming. Firstly, is our one our partners having their event on the 21 Oct 2011 to 2 Nov 2011, at SCAPE!!

SPI in support of the Musuem of Horrors! $20 cash retail voucher each with every ticket purchased. Just mention SPI at the purchasing counter at SCAPE only!

Up coming next..

It will be our annually ACM Fright Nite is Back again!..

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Here is the new update poster for this event.. Come join us, FREE ADMISSION!

We warmly welcome everyone to join the both mentioned events.. For more details, join our SPI facebook!! See you guys there! =)

2011-10-20T17:22:00.003+08:00

Hee.. I've so much things to post.. Let's get things started..

16.10.2011

This day was one day before my birthday, I supposed to go for marathon. However, I wasn't feeling therefore, I dropped out from the run. Then, I stay home and rest till I'm much better. Until, in the afternoon my second sister came to house with my lovely niece whom have the same birthday month with me. After awhile, we decided to go City sqaure mall which located near my house. My sisters decided to get my ice cream as birthday's cake I'm not in favour. So, we went to something "Daily" which situated at the Basement 1 somewhere the direction towards of MRT.

The crew there were funny and lovely.. Even though, it was so busy that day, they still give a big smile. What's interesting was there ice-cream they have which something much alike with those pakistan ice-cream which can hold it without falling from the cup. My sisters and me ordered Oreo Brownie Waffle bowl. The taste was fabulous..! ~

I had it my own and my 2 sisters had to share one.. same goes with my lovely niece. Thought of sharing with her.. my sister says I'm the birthday girl I should have only myself.. (*touched*)

This the said ice cream, I've mentioned.. It's so nice..!

Thereafter, I went home after sending them back to AMK..

17.10.2011

That day, It was my birthday.. I stayed at home and then, I went out to collect my boots which I've ordered sometime back ago.. I went to pandan loop, Pantech Business hub to collect from them. I was so excited and it's really like a gift which come at the right time.

Then, went home and rest.. My third sister who is a person hardly joke with me suddenly sent me this sms:

I laughed to the extend that I nearly fell off from my chair..

When she came home, I really nearly kiss her. She keep laughing and laughing non-stop whereby all of us broke into laughter.. My fourth sister also a classic lady who went out and buy my cakes. She had cahoot with my youngest sister telling me some one is outside waiting for me. But however, I have managed to guess what happened.. And they feel a little sad that I see through the trick.. Haha!

But well, I love what they have did.. They simply so lovely.. here is the cake they bought for me..

On the same day, my mum also asked my maid to cook longetivity noodle for me.. I am so touched for it too.. here is the noodle..

Overall, I am very contented what I have and what my sisters have did for me.. =)

18.10.2011

I went to work and I was surprised by my collegues all of them flood me with birthday wish.. I was so touched even though that day was a busy day for me, for us..

I also received a gift from my colleague.. It was a iPhone cover! I heard from sister that the cover is pretty expensive as it is a original apple cover. It roughly cost about S$30/- plus.. Here is my gift:

Nice right??!!

Then, let's come to Today..

I came across my friend's FB stating that her dog was been video without her consent. What's make it worse was the crew of the particular cafe laugh at her dog, as the dog has a rare illness which in her genes. It make the dog can't walk properly in sense of walking like "marching". Which makes me angry! It's so ridiculous! How could it be happening in a dog cafe. My friend commented about the incident and the owner or the in-charge keep protect a kid and do not wish to apologize of such incident happen. What's more that there were eye-witnesses saw what has exactly happened.

And, still the in charge denied of this thing happened and says that it's a merely misunderstanding. IF one person was to highlight, you can say it's a misunderstanding. BUT many were to say the same, it will not be misunderstanding. So mad! Still can urge.. I feel sad for my friend and her lovely dog. I don't feel comfortable as the dog cafe did not handle the situation well. It will make things worse instead of better. A simple apologist is what my friend want, but they refused to do so. What kind of cafe? It's a one and only dog cafe I would say..

Oh well, don't wish to say further.. Oh, my sister bought bean curd yesterday night and I ate earlier and this bean curd is so so nice.. It's so smooth and no powdery taste. And the bean curd taste heavily of soya bean taste. It's so so fabulous. Something that I've never taste before so far..

Yummy..

Address of the bean curd stall!!..

That's all for now..

2011-09-30T22:44:00.002+08:00

Finally I have finished my course, which I was been sent by my workplace in PSB academy for a 2 days course. I would say it's a enrichment course and definitely learned a lot from there. Basically, I was sent for a course namely "Deliver Quality Service" (not sure did i remember correctly). The trainers were experience and make things more related to our work.

Which I feels that it's very practical for our daily work. Dealing with people, ways of handling and etc.. which I found really interesting. Nevertheless, I hope what I have learned for this 2 days, I can apply and not waste the effort of the trainers for guiding us.

Almost forgot, during the first day of the course which was yesterday, when I went back home. Don't know what got to me, I suddenly decided to have a run. So, I ran from my house to my workplace which is a distance of 5km. It took's me like 39mins. Which I feels that I've improved in someways. Perhaps, I should gym more to improve the speed and at the same time to train for tolerance during off days.

And, best part was after I reached my workplace. I went to have a chat with some guys and almost forgot the time to go back. Thankfully, one of my colleague is good enough to send me back home. Or not, I should be sleeping at my workplace. LOL!

Tomorrow I am off and planning to do somethings and get it done with. Hopefully, I won't be lazing on the bed and forgot about it. (Which high chance it will happen.. T.T)

Oh, I have got myself a new laptop like about a week ago where there was some roadshow on-going. Reason of getting a new one's as the old one's had some issue, such as, unable to connect to wireless/mobile on broad band, consistence of hanging and etc. Tried to get it fixed, however problem persist therefore, leave me no choice to get a new one. So, I got myself Toshiba which cost somewhere S$899/- which I found it reasonable and within my budget. After which, I sold off the old one.

Here were the photos that I have took some time back:-

That's all folks~

2011-09-27T18:10:00.003+08:00

Haha! Is like finally I got my blogskin changed.. I'm a lazy person who does not really want my skin that complicated.. So, got this for myself. Something simple..

Oh well, many weeks ago my niece was with me and I've video her while playing with her. The quality is not that good. As, I need to upload to internet so I somehow changed the format. So, please bear with me and enjoy the video =)..

That's all folks!~

2011-09-26T16:40:00.002+08:00

Somehow I am stuck in how am I going to start my entry.. haha! There are too many things I wanted to say but after much thinking I decided not to.. *naughty*

My life is like a roller coaster.. From personal-work-relationship-family, it never go smooths for me. There are always obstruction or I would phrase it obstacle. Many times, I thought of giving up but I am trying not to. I believed one day my life will get even better from now.

Updating about my grandmother.. I believed I did mentioned previously that my grandmother is critical ill.. As such, day-by-day I am getting more worried for her. I am not sure what to do as I have been so busy with work. And, it's hard for me to even visit her. I should really find time to see her one day. It's been one yr that I have really see her.

For my sister's daughter, she is very adorable. Funny was she somehow, she is scared of me.. haha! Well, I don't really close with her as most of the time I am not at home. And, I hope that she will be a good day rather than giving my sister more problems.. *love her always*

As for me, somewhere next month before my birthday I am going for Real Run. Thereafter, I will take a day off and rest of course. Also few days ago, I just went to get a trail running shoes from New Balance. Total damaged was like S$75/-. It's a new arrival shoes supposed to be S$115/- but due to I have joined Real Run and I have Citibank credit card so I got that much of discount. After purchasing the shoes, I quickly went to try it out and it is madly awesome! The inner is so comfortable.. and outer it's look great! Later I will upload the photos of my shoes.

Ok, now I should show you the photos that I had taken couple of days or weeks: -

Something interesting that happened Today:-

I was at my eating area in my workplace. And some interesting thing that I had did..

Me: *playing Iphone game happily*

2 of my colleagues: Hello, Sir..

Me: *OMG!" I am dead.. Then quickly sent SMS to my partner that our supervisor is here

Me: *thinking what to react* pretend to wear back my specs.. Hello, sir

*Pause for one moment, thinking why i am so scared..*

Supervior: Now is it your resting time?

Me: *thinking*

*Suddenly, recalled... It's my rest time*

Me Replied: ya..

Supervisor: Ok..

Me: I am going off like about 20 mins..

Supervisor: Ok.. no worries..

*After 20 mins*

Me: Sir, I make my move..

Supervisor: carry on

*Run down to basement to look for my partner*

My partner: *giggling* some one just scored point

Me: *unbelievable look* No lo!! I was scared like hell thought I am not having my break.. and my mind went blank..

My partner: *continued giggling*

Me: *rolled up my eye*

This is how I react when I am doing night shift.. Always in a blank mode and don't know how to response accordingly.. LOL! Well, it's just for laughter only..

That's all folks! =) * More photos you can go to my FB to have a look..*

2011-08-27T10:21:00.002+08:00

Regards to my previous post, my rashes finally fully recovered a week ago. My platelets went back to normal. No need further check-up! Woohoo!~

I'm so happy with National Skin Centre, Thanks to their fast service and concern from doctors whom gave me immediate attention. Thanks for time when the clinic was so filled with patients.. Their medications is really a magical one's.. after applying for like a few days it started to recover. Next month, I will be going back again for another follow up and that's it!

But I thought of asking them to see my acne too.. Hee! See any medications for it as well, since I've already paid for the consulting.

This few days will be our most hectic and tiring day. I hope everyone will be able to go through it. Importantly, I would like to wish all Muslim to enjoy their coming Raya! ~

Here are some photos that taken few days ago:

My sister treat after I recovered..

This was when condition got worse..

That's was both of my palm been affected as well.. =( But thankfully I have recovered from it..~

2011-08-07T19:03:00.002+08:00

What should I say today?! My grandmother recently been diagnosied with Cancer and it's at last stage. When I got to know about it I was tremendously shock!

She seems so healthy but yet she's been diagnoised with it. Currently, there is no more treatment for her as her cancer cells had already spread everywhere of her body. So, what we can do for her at this moment is to allow her to leave the world peacefully. Day by day, her body getting slimmer as she's not eating well. Feels pretty sad for her. I will try my best to be with her as much as I can.

For me, this few days I wanted to visit her but I have rashes all over the body and it itches a lot!.. I had seen 2 doctors and both are in TTSH. One told me that I have allergy but after taking the medications it got even worse than before. So I went back again, and took a blood test. After much waiting, the doctor told me that my blood platelets went low again!..

Oh gosh! And, this time the doctor told me that there is possible that I have dengue fever. So, asked me to stay home and rest as well, if the rash got worse to come back straight. As they worry that it may bleed under the skin. He also told me not to scratch. And, wait till tomorrow's specialist before giving further treatment. Feels rather sad.. and worry as well. Well, I got to wait till tomorrow..

That's all for today... Have to wait till tomorrow's result..

2011-07-16T12:49:00.002+08:00

Geek! I'm so busy recently.. I've moved back to my own house to stay. Initially, I wasn't that comfortable at home. Until my sisters keep talking to me and comfort me, as well, assured me that everything will be fine. So after a few days at home, I'm getting used but still have some fears in me. Worry that what had happened in the past may re-occured back. Well, I'm trying to let it go.

Went to SIM yesterday to help out Desmond in his corporate talks. At first, I am not that sure what I should do or even talk. But I don't denied that it's an eye-opener for me. The participants were really nice and they showed interest in our hobby club. Even, there were few of them are our fans.

Desmond, really have his ways to captivate the participants attention and even me, I'm also into his talk. I can see many of them really enjoyed and fun in his talk. And, many showed their interest and keep asking questions and of course, Desmond, answered their questions.

After the seminar, me, Desmond and Terence went to somewhere nearby to have our dinner. After we had our dinner, the weather suddenly turn weird and a sudden rain came. All of us were caught in the rain and we went to a bus stop to shelter. It took us several plans to head back to car park. Not sure how my minutes or hour we have waited and the rain getting mild, we quickly went back to the car park and take our stuffs, and went back home.

By the time, I reached home it was quite late. I took a shower and head back to rest. That's all for the moment. Will update more as soon as I'm free.. =P

2011-06-22T21:34:00.004+08:00

Just realized how much difference that I had last updated my blog. No choice, my current career couldn't updated as much or would say as regular as compared to the past. I also realized that in this career my English does improved in some sense in constructing sentences and etc. Perhaps the help of my friends and colleague who been really patient with me and teach me.

Been really busy with work, and yes some fustration in work which is not avoidable. How much I could wish I could share but due to my work, I am not allow to do so. Many times, I has been so foolish in making myself into emotional states. I have to change my character or not, I will not be able to last long in my career.

Well, life still has to go on right? Ok, recently I had bought a new camera and yes, it's a DSLR which I yearned to have one. It's been a love-hate-relationship (haha!) whether to buy, or not to buy as I do have one camera which bought not long ago. But still, I love DSLR cameras! So, I observed the GSS and eyed on Canon 550D which normally without discount it cost S$1,699 and after discount due to GSS it cost S$1,166. It's like a S$500/- differences! As such, I decided to get from COURTS and get through installment so yes, the installment plan been approved and I got the camera!

After which, much consideration I also decided to sell off the camera that I had. My friend been nice and helped me to get a friend to buy the camera so, I sold it to him just few days ago. Although, I couldn't bear the pain to sell it off but for my own spacing I should let it go for good and at least, this person loves camera so I believe the camera will be in good hand.

So recently, I bring around my new camera to take photos and also at the same time realizing that it took longer time to upload to FB, perhaps due to the megapixels is bigger than usual one? But it'll never stop me taking nice photos.. Meanwhile, I am trying to get the right way to take nice photos. Here is some photos that I took randomly..

Taken in one restaurant.. It's a claypot congee and fried XO carrot cake..

Si ma lu, which located in Middle road, Bugis Junction.

Famous Kuan Yin Temple..

Oh yeah! I will be moving back home to stay meaning that my mum asked me to go home and stay since I am out from home for almost 3 years. So, after much consideration I agreed to go home since my sister been bugging me to go home instead of living alone outside. So, yeah! I will be moving by next month onwards and my mother also demanded some money per monthly. I agreed and I hope no more nonsense from her as currently my work is much more stress. And hope, my relationship with her can get better. This is really what I want and hope for. Perhaps, I am trying to forgive her on what wrong doings she had done and hope she wouldn't bring harm to me or my sisters. This is what I hope for.

Oh well! I got to go and rest, tomorrow I have in-service in DHQ and as well dinner with management for some events thingy. Good night!

Sundown Marathon

2011-05-29T22:21:00.003+08:00

My outfit for the day!..

Yesterday marathon was awesome, this was my first race of the year! Although, I didn't go for my best timing but I did enjoyed the race. After changing, I went out took a cab and told the uncle I'm heading to Changi Exhibition Hall. What surprise me was the uncle did not know where is that place and asked me whether do i know? If I know how to go, I wouldn't be taking a cab, right?

I was so mad, so I told the uncle to drop me at Expo instead. Luckily, he said he knows how to go. Or not, I will flare up at him! Haha!

On the way, the traffic was horrible! Heavy traffic when on our way out to PIE! Initial thought was how come the traffic so heavy? Until we reached a junction and saw multiple cars accident.. I was shocked! Well, after the heavy traffic everything was smooth. And, I supposed to meet one of my colleague at Changi exhibition centre but I changed location to Expo since I am reaching there.

The seaside..

So, after reaching I met my friend than we headed to the destination and consider we are early. The weather was so damn humid and I was sweating like mad! At the same time, I am so excited about the race!

behind the stage..

We deposit our bag and waiting for our other friend. But however, our friend came late! So when the event started we ran without him. While running, the crowd was so bad that I keep stuck at the back. So, no choice got to suck my thumb to move with the flow. Upon running till 3 km, my neck started to feel pain no choice i got to stopped and walk for awhile till the pain comes down and run again, and this continue the end of 10km.

So, it took me 1 hr 31 mins to complete the whole race. I expected the timing as I know I will not be able to hit my target timing 56mins. But at least, I did not give up and eventually I enjoyed the race to the fullest!

The volunteers were cheerful and helpful. I remembered that I had missed one water point and badly in need of water. One volunteer gave me even though she was busy catering others. I was contented! hee~

After the race, both me and my friend were dead tired and head back home. And, we were told by my friend that the next day our muscle will like as if been knock down by MRT train and asked us to do lots of massage after home.

So we bid goodbye as, he was following his parents for dinner. While me and my other friend took the shutter bus. The shuttle service was great and I am fortunate to get a seats and they controlled the amount of people in the bus.

On the way, the traffic was really bad but I wouldn't mind as just nice the 21km run had flagged off. So, it's an chance for me to see how the experts run. I saluate to those who had run for 21km and 42km. It took lots of energy and saw them running without stopping.

After 10 mins to 20mins of jam, we managed to get to Expo and we separated from there. As usual, I took a cab back..

Upon reaching home and bathed from a hot shower. I realized that my muscle started to ache and I quickly put on my counter pain and plaster that similar to salonpas. Then I head to bed and sleep.

Until this morning my legs were fine but my body as though been rolled over by a car. The ache was speechless. I went to BPP to do some massage and it indeed ease a lot and now, I putted more plaster and counter pain, and hope tml will get better. Well, got to go and sleep. Tml I am working!~ Bye..

My medal.. And, this will not be my last race!..

2011-05-28T10:07:00.006+08:00

This few days REALLY wasn't my day, seriously. Why I said that, was sick than next while collecting my marathon race pack with my friends, we had accident along PIE Changi, directly opposite ITE Tampines! It was a shock to me even though i wasn't the one who drove the car and not even my car!!

My "transparent" tank top!

These were the items been given out by the organizer!

After the accident, I went to seek medical treatment as i felt discomfort and pain at the neck and shoulder blade area. So, I went to polyclinic and get consulted and result was a strained neck, and been given 2 days mc! I was so pissed as I am worried for my marathon! what only i can do was to pray to god to allow me to recover fast..

With the cervical collar! Damn uncomfortable..!

But after the second day, my neck went stiff! I had no choice to get myself to TTSH A&E to seek medical treatment. I was been putted on Cervical collar as my neck was injured! The doctor also given me IV Tramadol and some anti-nauseatic medication. He also ordered x-ray and spinal nursing as well! I was serious tramatised with it! But due to the medication, i knock out almost immediately as one of the medication cause drowiness. Thank goodness! I didn't drive on that day, and i am not in the condition to drive as well.

After that, i went to see the lawyer and than, i went back home to rest. I was so fustrated with all such hassale that i've been put thru. I also have lodged a police report as i was been given MC. On other hand, my friend told me that his car rough estimate that the bugger will incurred was about $25k-$30k. Which means that the impact of the accident was really that bad! Hope that bugger get his punishment!

Today is the day that i'm going for the marathon hopes that i wouldn't aggravate the whole condition. And, this time i have changed my mindset not going to hit my best timing and just enjoy the race.

Now i'm going off to prepare my stuff for later events.. Bye!~

*Recently, i met my ex-school mate and i am really happy for her that she's married to a good guy. She also asked me when i will get a new boyfriend and my answer was not that soon and shall let nature take it's course. I am not in a hurry to get married or whatsoever. I couldn't forgo what had happened in the past, and thus i am not ready for a relationship. I am contented what i have now.

Even now, I still can't forgo what had happened, but i am trying my best to be happy. My goal in my life is to focus on career and my physical fitness level. That's all i want for now!

And, a piece of good news, my sister is going official ceremony for her "BIG DAY" somewhere 19 june 2011, i am really happy for her. Finally things, has settled down for her. Hope all the best in her marriage life and have a blissful marriage!.. *mad happy*

2011-05-06T20:15:00.003+08:00

Haha..! Slow in updating my blog again.. Well, I am really busy recently due to some events and we are running low manpower. So basically, we work damn hard for this few weeks! Hopefully, tomorrow will be the last.. as i desperately in need to go on leave to have some rest..

Having some nose bleeding, perhaps due to the "cranky" weather? Either rain or it's like super hot?? I even get drenched when i am at work! God!

Hmm.. But i shouldn't nag further as i am not the worse one.. Haha! Oh ya, I am really glad to see people who I have yet to see them for so long. Like friends from SPI.. I miss them really a lot! haha! Fun-loving people! While meeting them, and there's some changes in SPI organization chart as well. Well, couldn't be happier when everything going back on track.. Some nasty people who i really dislike is no longer in.. And i hope new people could bring back our SPI on the right track. That's come from my heart..!

We gather ourselves some time back and yes, one of my beloved friend couldn't make it as he's busy with his work.. =( But well, we will meet one day ya! Back to the gathering, that day i was late as i just finished my night shift and tried my best to rush over there and well, it already started! haha! But I am not the only late, there is some one even more late than me.. which is justin and the girlfriend! Haha!

In the room, Desmond updated us all the new organization chart and new people managing the department and so on and so forth. During the presentation, Yuko and Christine got to leave earlier as they have some other stuffs to do. But i am glad to see them there..! It's been a long time that i last met them!

After that, Desmond continues and when everything ends we head to a nearby coffee shop to have some dinner. The dinner was fantastic and well lots of jokes as well! Importantly, Justin was drunk and started to sprout lots of nonsense. haha! After much, everybody left back home included me. Misses them a lot! Oh, we have next meeting again! Hope to see them again!! cheers!

2011-04-15T20:55:00.003+08:00

I come to a point and realized that after joining the force, i get more vulgar and agitated easily. I'm not sure whether because of the environment i work into, turn me to this and as such, a vulgar and annoying character sets in to me? This is not so like me, but the environment turn me to this or i change myself to fit in the environment? - I'm confused..!~

Oh well, everyone is not a perfect, like one of my senior say, people can be nice at work but does not mean they are good with friends vice versa people can be nasty at work but nice to friend or even both are good but not a family-orientated person. I seriously do agree on what been mentioned. Been self-reflecting on myself, seriously i have made a lot of mistakes and people are really patience with me and as such, i shall not disappoint them further.

I have to drill my mind to change for better and return to be me.. I hope i can do that and turn a new leaf. I seriously hope that..

Oh, recently i am so into watching drama from china and caused me to sleep late at night. But i am amazed that china shows/drama are getting better but of course the storyline is almost the same can be predicted. I am not the person who are so into china dram but recent one really suck me in.

Currently, i am watching "女娲传说之灵珠" which starring by Hong Kong artiste "twins" one of the lady namely "Ah jiao" who have sex-scandal with Edison Chen. You guys can watch it and seriously it's very nice. You can search online to for the drama.. =)

Here is some of the songs played in the drama, enjoy..:

2011-03-30T20:09:00.003+08:00

Sorry for not updating regularly for my blog. Been real busy and as well not in a mood to post anything.

Where should i start on about my post?.. LOL..Hmm.. I feel relatively sad that today was my great mentor last day. Finally the day as come that he has to leave us, our team and our NPC to other post. Well, when we were in the briefing the usual laughters we had was gone, has we are aware that finally is the end of shift our beloved colleague is time to go. When our TL asked each and everyone to say our last words to him, all of us nearly teared which included me. Although, i didn't spend as long as like one of my kak who work with him like 10 yrs? But i do work with him before and enjoy partnering with him, as well a good listener ears when i am emo.

A senior who never use his rank to talk to us or even anyone, a senior who sit down as a friend, as a big brother to everyone. A senior who first to come in helping u when u are engaged or u are in trouble. A senior who backs u when u need support. All this contribution are seen to each and everyone. What he has done will always be in our heart and memories. I seriously will miss him, he's also the one who helped me a lot and guide me when my FTO who supposed to do the job but throw me aside and left me to die. He came to rescue me, when i about to give up, he came to talk to me and support me. I am glad to have such supervisor and a brother like him. Without him, i wouldn't learn that fast and thanks to him to teach me to be patient and etc..

After talking in the briefing room, we decided to have breakfast together and walk with him till we were apart after breakfast. Everything ended smoothly and everyone head back home to have a rest, tml is going to be a day which we need to be back to DHQ for in-service.

Before heading home, i decided to drop by BP to collect my uniform which i sent for altering few days ago. After collecting i than head back home to rest..

Woke up and planned to wash my baby as i did not wash for like 2 weeks?? As such, decided to get down to MSCP to do some washing. Upon reaching the MSCP and was trying to start my car, something had happened..! I can't start my baby!! I was worried and panic, wasn't sure what to do.. I called my car agent and he recommend me a car mechanic to me and i quickly called to ask for rescue.

The car mechanic told me that he will be coming about 6pm as i called him was about 5.10pm. So i agreed and went to draw money and expecting him. While waiting, i contacted a friend of mine who i know him thru SPI and get his advise, he patiently guided me till the mechanic came..

The mechanic changed the battery and asked me to try before he left. Thanks god! my baby is working!! i was so delighted and hand him the money and inform my friend. After that, went to proceed to was my baby..

From this..

To this.. Cost me $125..

My baby was so dirty to a state that my pail of water was so dark..! Gross! As a gal, i didn't clean my baby for so long! opps..! =P

Cleaned Baby!

Going to polish my shoes and iron my uniform for tml in-service.. bye!

2011-03-09T23:14:00.002+08:00

What shall i post today.. Recently, i have been asked to go on leave so i have some time to spare or even to train for my upcoming marathon.

I've been dreaming lately, well who don't dream isn't it? How shall i phrase it? For me, due to some special ability i have, i dream things which is related to a certain things or which has happened or haven't yet. They called it something like "deja-vu".

I dreamt of i have a little kid for the past few months. And it seems to me is a little girl trying/learning to talk. Well, she is a pretty little kid.. But i wasn't sure why i will dream of her or maybe it happen for a reason.

It consistently coming to my dream on and off or would say randomly. I am so puzzled and as well, in the background i saw a guy i am not sure who is this fella. But some how familiar to me.. but well i do not wish to think much at this present moment.

I know there is friends are concerning about me, as recently i had some mood swings and always hide feelings without telling to anyone. It happens after my previous relationship, i started to fear of everything. I appear to be strong but in actual fact i am not. I smile and laugh but my heart still feels hurt.

Colleagues tried to match make but i am fear, my friends match make i am fear too.. seriously i thought i have forgot every things happened to me.. but in fact no.. There's some memories keep stuck in my mind.. some things happened which i will never forget.. even till now..! At times, i feel silly things should have long forget and should have put it down or just jolly well forget but i simply can't.

Maybe girls tends to take longer time to recover than guys. I hate myself to be so emotional.. I hate myself to be so weak.. Simply hate myself..! argh!

2011-03-03T15:18:00.002+08:00

Today supposed to be a rest day but in the end, i have to head back to DHQ for our in-service. The purpose of going back is to update our knowledge and create awareness of what happening around. So we have to meet our DTL by 8.15am and eventually, i came first and slowly the others. After awhile, we went for inspection and pledge taking.

After which, all of us head to auditorium for our in-service. It lasted well, and i didn't know my friends in other team involved as well. They show a video of a skit which they did on last month at Singapore Polytechnic. I didn't know it was so funny, because of funny it made us more aware about their latest product. It's an interesting product, which will assist in our future work. I would say is madly awesome, great work, great effort of them. It used up all their rest days or even work days to finish the project. Madly awesome team work!~

And lastly, we ended with our division WII competition of some boxing game. We indeed enjoyed a lot, at least something to relax and enjoy during our rest days. As well, to foster our relationship with different departments. I really enjoyed..

After we end, i decided to head back home as i am really tired. Lazy bum me!.. On the way, while i was crossing the road to the bus stop, one idiotic taxi driver intended to beat the red light and what happened next is the taxi landed up so near me till it was like almost going to hit me! I was like WTF! It happened so fast till i can't even react on time.. Thanks god, that i am still in one piece! My immediate actions is to take note of the taxi number and while doing that the taxi driver realize that i am a police officer. His expression turned real pale. I don't give a damn and walked off. What i will do is to feedback to comfort delgro and let them take action against him! *angry*

I took a bus and head home. I was so dead tired while watching my online shows i ended sleeping in front of my laptop. So funny! Later i will send a official email to comfort about earlier incident! Now i should rest again, tml i need to work morning..!

2011-03-01T11:15:00.003+08:00

This is a overdue post which i have went gathering with my SPI friends after my training. We had Seoul Garden at Marina Square. We had lots of fun and joy during the gathering! It's madly awesome i would say. For me, i got to know a new friend, her name call Cynthia. I have heard her name before a few occasion due to Uncle Chua kept asking for her presence, so i remember her name by hard. So, fortunately she was there as well.

So knowing her presence and our group started to tease her with uncle chua.. But however, Uncle chua is still the main character for us to tease with. As he always have some surprise actions/words from him. He really made us laugh out loud!

That day we really enjoyed a lot and as well have ate a lot too! Hahaha! Hope that we will have more gathering!~

That's all!

2011-02-25T15:48:00.002+08:00

Back again with a new skin. Every time changing the blogskin, i need time to see and see whether is it easy to configure the HTML. Well, now i found a simple and nice skin, hope i won't change like maybe a year or so? Haha..

Today went for my IPPT and i thought i couldn't make it, but i was shocked the first few runs i maintained at least 2 mins. Than i slow a bit and maintain, as well i realized that i am the first woman running. After the 5th round, i pick my pace again but for no reason i feel like puking. I was like WTF! not again.. despite of puking my DTL keep support me and keep encouraging, which force me to bear with the puking and run for my life. I sprinted for the last 400m and in the end, i pass at the timing of 16 mins.

From 17 mins 54sec to about 16 mins it's a good improvement and it tells me that i have potential to get back my old timing of 14 mins or even better if i were to continue to train for the next one month before the new financial year started.

After IPPT, i am so tired so i went to get myself a drink and walk off to Novena Square for breakfast. So i decided to treat myself a better one, and get my favorite Waffles and Egg meal at KFC. After which i head home and rest as tonight i am performing night shift.

Praying hard that tonight i partner with a good one not a bad one and a good night with not much things. Praying for the best..!

Resting again..!

2011-02-12T22:05:00.002+08:00

Hmm.. Yesterday, went to collect my car and took me a hard time to drive back as it's manual. Dumb ass me, that i have sincerely return my manual driving skills back to my driving instructors. Idiot! While driving from Turf city to Bukit panjang at the time of 7pm to 8pm, the traffic was so horrible. Practically, the cars are so packed!..

I keep stalling my car while traffic jam as well as stopping the car! Many experience drivers horned me, i was so freaked out! Some even more irritating came beside my car and gave me a disgusted look. I understand as a female driver, i tend to lose to guy drivers. They have much better sense of driving and judgment better than girls. But, you have to give us a chance as well. I am trying my best to improve and trying my best not stall and i know a number of drivers are really patient with me and even use high beam to warn me if i nearly cut their lane, without realizing.

The reason for me to drive a manual car, firstly, something that is still within my budget. Secondly, fuel consumption friendly and lastly, good practice for controlling the car for beginners like me. It took me a really hard time to overcome whatever fear in me to drive back home and i nearly burst out crying when i stall my car multiple times. Even, i am piss-ed of myself..

People made comments about lady drivers and etc.. But did they know, people like me is trying very hard to learn to drive. I have no choice that i need to drive as my workplace to my house is far away from me and my job scope, i need to drive also. It's not easy for me..

I am bad on parking, always can't park straight or even park to whatever slot i want. So i force myself to park at super empty lots to practice till i am use to it.. At least for now, i can park in but still not that good. Still miss the slot i want and went to another slot instead.. But thankfully, no cars were around me. Or not, will be post to stomp for hitting cars and etc..

I promised that i will drive and park better.. to let you guys see that girls can drive! *humph*..

I also have to send my car for servicing, as i feel that the brake is a bit funny.. Maybe the ABS is giving me a hard time.. cause when i brake lightly it brake like super hard or sometime i feel is loose.. Anyway, i won't drive often, unless going to work or going out late to do some events.

Currently, i am watching some videos on driving, to adapt some techniques.. It's improved my three-point turn in fact. So, it's useful for me. Once i am free i will upload my car and the link about the videos. Now, i am going to rest. I am not feeling well today ~ That's all! Bye~

2011-02-11T14:18:00.002+08:00

Oh well, it's been a long time i didn't update my blog. I'm quite busy with my work and trying to get use of my new career. Although it's really tiring and always not enough rest. But i will never give up..

Recently, i was been reminded over and over again, about my IPPT test. I am quite worried about it. I told my in-charge about this, and he understand and say if i can't do it i can take letter to exempt me from taking till March. I told him, i does not wish to do it as i joining marathon in May. So i will try my best to go for IPPT and still he's worried. I told him, and will make sure i am well enough to go and won't put myself into any danger. After saying, he agree to let me try out on Tuesday. I quite delighted about it! Cause i don't want to bother anyone, so i am going to train, train, train. And of course, i will need enough rest at the same time.

I have learnt a painful lesson, which caused me to have this condition. I will never let myself go into such condition again. Anyway, something happen recently, i was having bad cramps and heavy menses. I was so afraid is due to low platelets and get me into it. Until, yesterday i went to the clinic to see a doctor and took an urgent blood test. Guess what, he told me that my platelets are back to normal..! I was so happy, he told me my heavy menses might be due to some gynae problem. I told him, i will see specialist when i am free.

Something to be happy about, but he told me though my blood platelets is back to normal doesn't mean i have to neglect about it. He told me sufficient rest is still needed, and not to neglect about daily meals. I promise him that i will try my best to get more rest and eat more. As well, exercise more! My motivation comes after he told me i am well! hahaha!..

Marathon here i come ~~ ^.^

Later i will be going out to have a run to do my training.. bye.. =)

2011-01-24T21:42:00.004+08:00

Today is my off day, and went for medical review at SGH for my pneumonia which i got it last year December. My heart was filled with nervousness, as i am practically anxious about the blood result. As you know i am suffering low platelets due to primary diagnosis, pneumonia.

And, i went for a run last week and nearly let myself fainted without realizing, and didn't know it was so bad that i couldn't breathe properly after running merely less than 1 km, which is so not like me. I so used to run like 5km? Now is like merely 1 km i already start panting and nearly fainted on my 2km plus running. I am so upset that i couldn't run more than that and at the same time i am worry of the condition. So, i decided to rest till today's review.

I went out at 12noon and went to cck to have breakfast + lunch. And head to SGH right after. After reaching i went to do my blood test than to do a CXR in x-ray department. After all testes, i went to the clinic and wait for my number to be call. After hours and hours of waiting, finally the doctor called me and when i went in, i saw the doctor expression and i knew that something is bad going to happen.

The doctor asked me how's my condition blah blah.. and i told him the above said problems. He told me most likely the asthma could made it worse and asked me to gradually to increase my exercise load in any case my lungs collaspe. He told me that my lungs are cleared and the main issue is the platelets. He informed me that my platelets is still low. Normal person should be somewhere 15o but mine is 130, i was shocked!

And, he mentioned that perhaps due to prolong infection which causes the issue. He suggested to do one more blood test including dengue test to exclude of dengue and next blood test if still show low platelets, he have to refer me to haemotologist for further investigation. *cry out loud*

He also mentioned to observe any signs of bleeding and unknown bruises. As well, he say my current situation i am easily to bleed and bruise as the platelets are still low but not to the extend of death. And, he say if i have bleeding i have to hold more than 5 minutes and so on..

After left the clinic, i totally lost of mood and feel sad that why could this befall one me. My friend said that there's potential might be ?leukemia, i was like.. he told me since my platelets still not as low as dangerous my life and he also mentioned that is already an improvement from 85 to 130, which shows that there's signs of improvement. At least something to be happy about. But i am still worry about it. And hope for the best.

If this situation going to prolong, i doubt i will go into any relationship or even extend of marriage as this condition might inherit to my future children. As well, i doubt no guys would want a gf or a wife to have such condition. I'm totally dishearten about it.. T.T

Oh well, life still have to go.. I try to think in the brighter side.. and share with you what's my current condition.. My current diagnosis is Thrombocytopenia;

"Thrombocytopenia (thrombopenia in short) is the presence of relatively few platelets in blood. Generally speaking, in human beings a normal platelet count ranges from 150,000 to 450,000 platelets per microliter of blood.^[1] These limits are determined by the 2.5th lower and upper percentile, so values outside this range do not necessarily indicate disease. One common definition of thrombocytopenia is a platelet count below 50,000 per microliter.

Signs and symptoms

Often, low platelet levels do not lead to clinical problems; rather, they are picked up on a routine full blood count (or CBC, complete blood count). Occasionally, there may be bruising, particularly purpura in the forearms, petechia (pinpoint hemorrhages on skin and mucous membranes), nosebleeds and/or bleeding gums.

It is vital that a full medical history is elicited, to ensure the low platelet count is not due to a secondary process. It is also important to ensure that the other blood cell types, such as red blood cells and white blood cells, are not also suppressed. Painless, round and pinpoints (1 to 3 mm in diameter), petechiae usually appear and fade, and sometimes group to form ecchymoses. Another type of blood leakage (and larger than petechiae), ecchymoses are purple, blue or yellow-green bruises that vary in size and shape. They can occur anywhere on the body from a traumatic injury.

A person with thrombocytopenia may also complain of malaise, fatigue and general weakness (with or without accompanying blood loss). In acquired thrombocytopenia, the patient's history may include the use of one or several offending drugs.

Inspection typically reveals evidence of bleeding (petechiae or ecchymoses), along with slow, continuous bleeding from any injuries or wounds. Adults may have large, blood-filled bullae in the mouth. If the person's platelet count is between 30,000 and 50,000/mm³, bruising with minor trauma may be expected; if it is between 15,000 and 30,000/mm³, spontaneous bruising will be seen (mostly on the arms and legs).

Extracted from: Thrombocytopenia if interested to know more click on that link..

2011-01-20T20:17:00.002+08:00

So long has not been updating, been real busy lately.. Trying my best to learn as much as possible.. I did managed to cope a few incident which scare out of my wits. But literally i pulled it through.. Went to meet my sister, and well as usual she wants me to give her a treat and yes i gave her a treat at this City Square located in Little India area;

Here is the food we ordered;

Smoked Salmon with olive oil.. taste great..

Black squid spahgetti.. awesome!

Lastly, is Double Cheese pizza..

My sister hardly finish any food, but that day she finished up the double cheese pizza and commented that it was delicous.. I was also amazed by her as well.. And the total bill was like about $13/-.. It's really cheap and filling too..

I never had such cheap and lots of food, initially i thought that i wouldn't be able to finish it, amazing my sister was the one who finished the whole plate of food expect for smoked salmon, as she dislike raw food.

She apparently told me that during my stay in hospital, someone actually asked about me which i am shocked. It's kinda weird as we longer related to each other and yet, he's asking about me. I was like.. blur.. Well anyway, i don't mind of it but my sister was like giving a look.. She told me, she don't feel comfortable of letting someone know about me since he is no longer related to me. I told her is fine, so long not asking weird question which she feel not comfortable, and she can always don't reply. And she agreed..!

She is rather a sensitive sister although she is evil in always targeting my wallet.. She will always think for others especially her own sister, i am honour to have her as a little sister even she always give me lots of problem, especially her studies..! But other than that she is fine.. Just hope she will get better in studies in the long run.

I'm getting tired, especially after a big illness i get tired easily and feel giddy easily.. I promised myself i will not get myself weak! Haha! well.. bye!

2011-01-01T11:46:00.002+08:00

Hmm.. I am here to share with you about my condition, Pneumonia. How i get this, till now i have no idea. I was shocked when the moment the doctor break the news, but is not new to me. But i have been wondering how come it hits me.

Anyway, during the Christmas night me and my friends we went to Loyang Dua Pek Gong temple to pray for a better year, than gradually i start to feel unwell. But it still does not make me till can't walk nor sit. Just purely unwell..

When we went back to the car and sending one of my gf back, i start to feel giddy and headache. That's was the time that i slowly feeling chill.. After we alighted her, i suggested to go rail way mall to have some hot drinks as i feel cold.

So after some distance, we reached Railway Mall, we went to Ah Mei to drink some tea to warm up my body. But still, no avail.. So i decided to head home straight and maybe the fever is coming too. Upon reaching home, my body temperature starts to go high, i feel chill and hot at the same time.. It's feel very lousy and terrible T.T

I took 2 tabs of panadol and filled my water bottle to a bream. The whole night the fever did not came down so i took another 2 more tabs after 4 hours of my previous tabs and refilled my water bottle countless time. The whole night was a torture, i wear my track pants and jacket i still feel the chill and i am sure i did not on my air-con either. It's like my room was on with a full-blasted air-con!

Until the next day, which is Sunday, due to i did not sleep at night i feel super tired so in the morning i took 2 more tab of panadol and wish that i can sleep. So of course, i knock off but only managed to sleep for an hour and the fever starts to rock again. I struggled for like another few hours and took another 2 more tabs and managed to knock myself again. And this time, i slept alittle longer which is somewhere 2-3 hours. After i woke up, i feel slightly better and i managed to sweat out. I tot that i should be fine BUT BUT i am wrong....!

The fever came back right after i took off my track pants! I was like oh god..! no choice i continue to take my panadol and rest. But till the night, the nightmare starts again.. TOTALLY cannot sleep at all.. I feel like i am burning and at the same time i am in a icy cold country.. Alot of things run into my mind, thinking what's happening to me. And something strikes me! At that moment, i already have something in my mind that either i have bronchitis or Pneumonia, as this is the most likely condition i will fall into..

Managed to struggle a Long Long Long night, in the Monday morning i drag my body to the clinic to see doctor, and than my temperature was like 38 plus degree. I was like oh man..! But what surprise me that is, the doctor told me that i might be having some viral flu i was like hmm.. ok.. and he presrcible panadol, cough syrup, flu medication and that's it.. NO ANTI-BOTIC! i was like fine, maybe i can fight without it.

So i tot seeing a doctor can make me feel better and consume the presrcible medication for a day, BUT with no avail. Fever still persist at the rate of 38.5 to 39.6! In my mind, i feel like f** but i still have to struggle to the next day to see how is it..

On the Tuesday morning, the fever came down a little but not to the extend of no fever. So i managed to catch a little nap but the fever came back right after i open my eyes.. i feel more and more breathless and feel like dying..

I managed to pull myself out of the house in the evening and got in a cab and asked the uncle to send me to hospital immediately. He saw my face like a white sheet of paper, and he really drove very fast as he say he really worries that i might just faint.

Once i reached SGH, i went to the counter and the nurse took my temperature and it went up to 39. 2 plus.. The nurse was shocked and i also told her that i feel breathless but i was ignored.. I even told the doctor when i am in the consultation room, he also ignored. But until, i show more signs and he start to get worried and ask the nurse to get me immediate ventolin Neb. I was sent for chest x-ray and blood test without sitting on wheelchair nor trolley. At that point, i have no more energy to walk or stand or even sit as my back hurts to the max! Until one of the nurse saw me crouch and look like falling, she quickly push one trolley to let me rest on it..

I waited for like 3 hours than the doctor came with one senior doctor to inform me that i have 1/3 of the lungs been affected by the pneumonia, which caused me shortness of breath. The doctor asked the nurse to give me oxygen and i feel slightly better as extra oxygen into my lungs and than i been sent to a private room for isolation. Before sending there, the doctor draw my blood again and set a plug to run 1L of Normal saline and need to be fast.

Once everything done, i been isolated for a few hours and another doctor came in to tell me that my platelets are low and there's possibility that i might have dengue as well. I was shocked! And he advised me to stay in the hospital to monitor the platelets and the fever. So i agreed.

After all the papers are done, arrangement done. I was been sent to the ward but i still couldn't sleep. I was on Normal saline initially, when another doctor came and tell me that due to i am not eating well i have loss of potassium so he's going to put KCL. I was like!!! than he also ordered to do FBC, UE crec and Blood cluture. Feel like crying of course.. Especially KCL drip and the blood cluture. Firstly, is the doctor unskillful in taking blood caused to break down and a near scolding of vulgarities. Lastly, the KCL is BURNING my vessels! So in the end, i did not sleep the whole night with my eyes open until the sun raise.. In additional, i was been putted IV anti-botic so in total i have KCL, D/S and IV Anti-botic running together! T.T

Wednesday morning doctors round, my doctor showed up and said the same old things and want me to rest. She will order more anti-botic and neb to ease my condition. So i agreed. And guess what, maybe i am toooo tired or the medication starts to help. I knock out right after the doctor left. But i still can't eat well..

I woke up and feel slightly better.. and continue to take medication and so on and so forth.. Until Thurday, i feel even better.. where i almost can run and jump..

Till Friday, which was yesterday i am well enough to be discharged and bring home 2 types of antibotic, cough syrup, easing of phlegm, steriods, ventolin and anarex. I will need to come back TCU in 3 weeks and 2 hours early to the hospital for blood test and chest x-ray! And at least i have appitite to eat and sleep! woooohooo!..

Now my focus is to rest as much as possible, as Monday i have to report to division!~~ See you guys..

* the reason that i put my condition up here, is to let you aware that if you ignored any of those signs that your body given you it will lead to condition, which you might not want to get into.. so do take care yeah!

2010-12-31T16:38:00.002+08:00

I've been disappeared for a few days, not because i went for a holiday, is i was sick-ed for the past few days and admitted to Singapore General Hospital (SGH). I have fever since the Christmas night till Wednesday. I did not see a doctor as i felt that it maybe a small issue, so i just purely consume panadol to lower the temperature.

But however, it doesn't work and the whole night i couldn't sleep at all. But i still continue to take panadol and the cough is getting bad to worse. Until Monday, i went to my house GP and the GP said that it's just a viral flu so just take some flu medication and panadol (again) and it should help in my condition. He also asked me to monitor my temperature. So i did that..

By Tuesday, the fever went even higher instead of coming down. And i feel like my whole body is tearing apart. Which makes me feel lousy and uncomfortable. Up to no choice, i got to drag my body to the hospital. Upon reaching, i was already left less than 10 percent of energy, when the nurse sees me i was like a "huh" look.

She asked me to wait at the fever zone as my fever went up to 39.2 degree. Waited again and finally seen a doctor and wait again for result and so on and so forth.. While waiting, i crouch on the chair as i was really really not feeling good. One of the nurse, quickly pull me up and get me a trolley to rest. If without her assistance, i doubt i could even climb up to the trolley.

I rested but still not feeling good. Until about few hours waiting the doctor came with a senior doctor and told me that i have Pneumonia. I was like "huh" again.. i was been pushed to isolation room and suppose to rest there for 8 hours. But 2 hours later, there is a professor came and told me that i could also have dengue as my platelets are low as well. I even more "huh"..

He advised me to stay in the hospital and i agreed. So on that day i was been admitted for drip and anti-botic treatment.

Here is some photos i took:

It was quite torture to stay there, so noisy and it hard to sleep whenever there's nurses and doctors keep coming to you. The real rest is at home.. No one, will disturb you.. woohoo! This is what i like to be at home! yeah.. So for now, i am home-bound which i don't mind and rest till the day reporting to division. Yippie!

Last photo:

"An apple a day keeps doctor away, two apple a day will keep the nurses away as well" Quoted by my friend. LOL..

2010-12-21T18:42:00.003+08:00

Photo taken in Dojo, with sir steven and close friends.

Oh yes! Today is my official last day in TRACOM. I am so HAPPY with it. But of course, there will be some people i will miss them for sure. I almost teared when we apart from the cck station. Oh well, life has to go on.. I hope my best/close buddies all the best in whatever they do, sincerely from my heart.

Lamb chop, ordered from TRACOM cafeteria

Onion rings, ordered from TRACOM cafeteria

The photos above i ordered from our cafeteria, and i was so crazy enough to take it. But of course, one of it i will miss is the food at cafeteria.

After today, i will start to slack but of course, i am not going to slack all the way. I still need to do some training to condition my body for my upcoming marathon. Why i decided to go for it? One, is a challenge for me to challenge my tolerance and physical. Second, something new to try and lastly, something that is a good way to maintain my fitness.

I am planning to go for Real Run and further more (still planning in process).. As well, i am also planning how shall i spend my holiday during this season. What to do, i am single now. Got to come up with things to entertain myself. LOL!

Alright, enough of it. Anyway, our SPI video are out for the Ex-CID HQ investigation.

Here's the link, click here: Ex-CID HQ video part 2.

For part one video, you can click for my past post;

Here's the link: Ex-CID HQ part 1.

That's all for now! Bye..!

2010-12-20T19:38:00.004+08:00

Today there's one idiotic bitch really irritates me. When she need help, she than talks to you nicely. When she don't need your help, she treat you as nothing. Like today, she came and ask me somethings which relates to her than she talks to me nicely.

When her friend ask me about one of the event, and i just be kind to just answer her doubt. And, she just say "why you know so much of things?" and "why is your organization organizing?" such related questions. Hello?? I am not talking to you and i am just answering to YOUR friend doubts. So, don't ask me as though i own you. Want to talk, please be nice.. I wonder did your parents teach you manners.

Alright, stop all those nagging. I can't stop those people mouth of asking, just have to tolerate such people nonsense. Argh!..

Anyway, i was so into funny videos recently. Perhaps affected from my lecturer and the videos i can just watch and watch without feeling sick. Here is one of the video:

"Twinkle twinkle little star (indian version)"

Heard that she's actually a professor way back in India, and according to it, she teaches music (if not mistaken). But how true is it, i am not that sure. But i feel it's really entertaining.

Another one is the "laughing baby", it's really makes your day by watching those innocent baby laughter.

Here is another one, "Evil look":

It's really funny! I falling in love with all this videos.. And it's really relax and make you more calmer.

Lastly, let me end with a funny animal video..

If i have more time, i will try to upload more interesting videos to entertain you guys! bye..

2010-12-19T12:36:00.006+08:00

Went to a late night investigation with SPI on the 17 Dec 10 and they did an awesome job. And this time, we went to Ex-CID HQ. There is few new guys was there like, James, Ken, Vincent and so on and so forth. Also old birds like me, intel, sponge, desmond and captain. As well, our producer IZ and guest appearances/investigator Noel Boyd, here is his blog,

Click : Noelboyd here

We were there for 5 hours and we managed to capture a few evidence. It was fun and awesome.

The isolation cell

There is also video of it, this is Part one of the video and part two will be coming soon..

Click Ex-CID HQ investigation Part 1 here

Oh not only that SPI are also official partners of 13 Cells, you maybe interested to come to have a tour at ex-CID HQ..

Click 13 Cells here

2010-12-14T22:35:00.002+08:00

I already started driving on the road for the past 2 days, been like a idiot driving as i am not familiar with the road. So, yesterday i went to pick up the car at Commonwealth Car Mall with my best buddy, when coming out from the Car mall both of us were lost. And, have no idea where to go. So, i suggested her that she'll look on my map while i drive her back home.

So, we left the car mall with no sense of where we are heading, we keep turning here and there till we managed to figure where to hit out to expressway. But what make me shock is i didn't realise that my fuel tank left less than 1/2. I was in the panic state, thankfully that my buddy went to call her bf to check and he told us not to worry, should be more than enough. As such, we continue to proceed to the expressway.

Once we reached the expressway, out of horror, the expressway was so JAM! Moreover, i am a newbie on the road which really frighten me out. Luckily, i have a someone to sit in with me while driving. She encouraged me even, she appeared to be worried but still put confident in me. I was so touched by what she did. We managed to get out of expressway and hit in to yishun area. But we missed alot of turns and keep doing countless of U-turn.

From 5pm onwards till 7 pm plus, we then managed to reach her place. And till than, the tank left less than 1/3. We quickly do top-up and rested awhile, before i head back home.

After resting, i drive out and try me best to get to expressway, and it took me 15 mins to get my way to expressway and head to mandai road. It was so eerie driving and best of all there's a number of vehicles illegal park there. It's really a road obstruction to me.

I hack care and continue driving, when i almost reaching PIE and i suppose to exit somewhere woodlands. However, i didn't.. i thought was another exit, by than it's too late for me to change lane..

So, i went out another way and managed to reach bukit panjang but silly me again do the wrong turn and landed back to PIE or BKE.. T.T

I have to find exit out again and made a U-turn (which i can't remember where is the exact place that i managed to make a U-turn.) back to bukit panjang. And it took me for like an hour or so to reach fajar and guess what, i can't do a proper parking! Damn it!

Up to no choice, i called my friend to come down to do a parking, and he laughed at me for a silly parking i did..

I couldn't sleep during the night as it so horror for me to drive on the road with soo much silly mistakes i made, which shouldn't be happening and it happened. So funny right? I think many drivers thinking i could i get my license.

Today driving i also miss my way to HTA and made a sooo abrupt U-turn and i bet there is a lot of drivers laughing on my "violent" turning. sad la!

I also seek help from my friend and one of my friend came for my rescue and did the parking for me again! And, he is willingly to teach me after the course.

Than after our course, as promised my friend sent me to bedok to collect my toy and he drive around to show me the way. And, lastly he drop himself at sengkang. So i took over and drive, and i used what he has taught me. And out of surprise, it's much easier after heeding his advise. Not much horning from the back and so on.. It went smoothly till i reach somewhere exiting expressway, i went to the wrong one as my iphone dropped from the dashboard and lost of the connection for more than 30 mins.

In the end, i landed at Boon Lay and as usually call my friend to seek help again. And this time, it's much clearer as i think i lost my way, don't know how many times. Concurrently, my GPS from Iphone function again, and i tried getting back. Indeed reached home safety and my parking is better!

But i still ask my friend and he coach me on the parking, which by one try i managed to get in. But still, my parking still SUCKS! Blame myself for so slow in learning!

Alright, anyway i intend to introduce my new toy that i get from CEJ equipment. This is the second time i patronize them, and surprisingly they still remember me and introduce me a cheap and good functioning torchlight.

I am quite obsess on torchlight and quite particular on it, especially after my first torchlight has spoiled no other torchlight can compared to CEJ equipment torchlight. Theirs are good and practical in use, as well they don't anyhow recommend torchlight. So long, you tell them what you want and the cost you target of, they will recommend you what you want. Just as simple as that.

So this time they recommend me this:

It's quite powerful and it shines very bright even in the room light on.. This is one example that i shine on my room lighted room.

According to them, it can shine as far from one block to another block or even more. I was surprise of the power of brightness it can go. It comes with rechargeable batteries or AA batteries. I chose rechargeable batteries as i'm quite lazy on buying batteries and it kind of waste of money.

This the charger, inside consist of one battery. One more battery is already in the torch itself. So 2 batteries was given by them. It cost me about 90 plus dollars. Which i think it's worth it.

If you are interested in such torch you may want to contact them at this numbers:

The original price is somewhere 100 dollars plus. Due to i know them so i get such discount. So please don't be confused. *thick skin*

Alright that's all i am blogging, i am going to sleep. Tmr i have one more minor test. Bye!

2010-12-11T19:54:00.004+08:00

I already POP-oh.. Passed out since 8 Dec, and my friends came for my parade and they bought me flowers. It's really pretty! Serious! I fall in love with lilies.. hahas..

Also, i have said the answers and free from relationship, i think i may help the both of us from hurting each other, since i can't bring myself to forgive him. Although, we are no longer together, i still hope all the best for him.

Today i went out to open new account, and finally decided to save extra money even i have save in my insurance. But still want to save more, and it's for my car dream. Hahas! I was in the bank like 1 to 2 hours, it was so crowded and many paper work to be done.. T.T

After it, i went IMM to re-contract my iphone and it took me another an hour or so.. it's like waiting forever! bought a few stuffs, like contact lenses a few boxes and my friend gift which already cost me a few hundreds.. T.T bankrupt already.. No choice, i force myself to save so can't spend much either.

So next month onwards, i will have to save extra more.. need to save, save, save. LOL!

This is my perfume that i aimed for sometime..:

That's all.. see ya!

2010-12-05T10:46:00.002+08:00

I am so delighted to inform you guys that i am passing out soon as a full-pledged Police Officer..! Awesome right?.. Officially i am passing out by this upcoming Wednesday, in fact we are now considered as a graduate but need to be official by our commissioner on that day!

No doubt that it'll be my most happiest event for me, i put lot of efforts and tears in this career, and i am looking forward of my newly embarked career. Thankfully to my supportive friends, who keep encouraging me all the way through out my training, even now they still giving me the moral support. And, i didn't let anyone down.. Especially i need to thank you captain, despite his busy schedule, he's willing to give me revision and hear me repeating the answers without any complains.. lol.. and my sureties, who willingly to come and sign my bond without complains and moreover, it was a very last minute call.. I really appreciate those people, who helped me during my difficult times..

Finally now, i am going to graduate and step to the reality of the world but no doubt i will carry on fighting till the end.. hahas.. sounds like i am going for a full battle..

Well, i also need to give an answer to a person.. i am still not ready in giving the answer cause i still can't forget what has happened in the past. Been ditch aside when i in need of help.. Memories flow in my mind, which can't be forget, a wound which is deeply hurt and not willingly to wake up.. which i doesn't want to recall again. I never been hurt as much as what my parent has did to me. A person who i close with and always giving tons of chances which never been appreciate. Whatever i have done, which never been put in heart and thrashed me which hurtful remarks.. Especially when something big had happened, and never expected the answer will be.. which really disappointed to the max! How could i forgive you??.. Seriously, is hard for me to forgive a person who really breaks my heart, over and over again..

Well, i am confused. I wished to be alone and don't want to dwell on this too much. Even any guys come to me, i am shifting myself away. I am really scared.. This time i am really scared.. scared been hurt, scared to tears.. No more trust to anyone.. T.T

Alright, i shall not think again.. or not, seriously a happy event will make me tear like mad woman..

Is a regret that i can't march with my squad mates as i so-called "dislocated" my shoulder during my attachment. But my spirit will be always be with them.. I am soo looking forward this wednesday! Woohoo!

2010-11-13T19:25:00.002+08:00

Haha.. Had finished my practical test and IPPT, now left theory test to go.. As well as my TP.. T.T Failed the 2nd attempt. But what's make me happy is i have been nominate for Best in Police Studies and my IPPT timing improved alot.. My 2.4km run from 16.11, 15.36 to 15.24.. and my shuttle run from 12.9sec, 12.7 to final 12.0 sec.. See, so much improvement.. It's telling me i have to keep on moving.. yeah!

Not feeling well for at least a week, having severe migraine. Until today i decided not to go early driving lesson and went to clinic to see doctor. I waited for at least an hour plus, the clinic was filled with people. It's a mental tortured waiting there, moreover i had puked in the morning which makes me more jelly.

After much waiting, i managed to consult the doctor, and he told me that lately i am very stressed up, which is why the migraine attacks me. He asked me to rest well and try to keep mind relax. And, he also prescribe me other medications. After seeing the doctor, i quickly went to take my medication from pharmacy and went to coffee shop to have some warm drinks and swallow the medication.

I rested for about 20 minutes, i felt much much more better and i went back home. Soon after i rested, i went for a swim than went to bugis for prayer. I walked awhile and went to Sim Lim Square, and i remembered that i promise myself that if i get to pass my IPPT i will want to buy itouch as a reward. So, i went there, and i suddenly realised that the itouch is still much expensive for me to afford and i decided to get something else. Finally, i decided to get Sony walkman player, which just released not long ago and as well it's convenient for me to wear it for a jog. So i purchased it! Woots.. Which this tells me that i can't spend too much for this month. HAHA!

After buying i went back home and start charging it... After it's been charged i quickly went for a jog with my new gadgets!.. And, you know what, it's so damn cool! I love the way it design!!!.. KEKE!

The bass was so damn cool, which really makes me run pretty fast.. It's worth the money! More over, it's water proof.. hee.. However, i also would want an itouch, i think i will buy end of the year.. (cause got bonus mah..) LOL.. Well, depending the situation as well.. bleah!

Well, soon i am going to pass out! This is the time i am waiting for.. I am so delighted! Soon i will be a full-pledge officer same like my friend. And, of course more responsibility and more new things to learn as well. But i am willingly to take the challenge.. hee.. This is what i want, and i will accept any challenge up ahead me.. =D

Here is the photos that i random took today:-

My reward.. =D

That's All..! =)

2010-11-05T13:00:00.004+08:00

Gee! Suppose to update my trip in Ubin, but in the end, i am too lazy to do it.. hahas! Seriously been real busy with exams and training, most of all i will be going for attachment soon as well as i am going to pass out in a month time. Which cause me real busy and no time to update blogs and as well replying emails.. Really sorry, if i didn't manage to reply on time..

Basically, next week i will have re-attempt of TP as i failed on Monday, so this following Monday is our another chance to go for it. Than next is my ISBT, it will be continuously for 2 days. Than SBT2 and IPPT on this week too.. It will be sure that this week is a hectic week and of course the following week i will be in 'E' division for my attachment, and it will be for at least a week more or so.

After that, Blk 2 exam than POP training.. so as you can see, where i will have time to really rest? Just hope that no problems comes in between or not, i will really not able to cope with so much things at one goal..

Deep in my heart, there is some fear and concern whether will i be able to pass my shuttle run. As i don't do really well on this static station. I used to able to run good timing back in school, but now i am not sure what makes me do really bad for this station.. I consulted my instructors and they found out that maybe i'm scared to fall therefore i tends to stop before reaching the stop line.. After many practice, yes i indeed pass but still i am worried as it was purely a trial.

But my friends keep giving me the encouragement and makes me feel even more confident. What's i also appreciate is one of a good runner gave me some tips and i will make sure, i will use it on the IPPT day.. And hope that i wouldn't let them down, as this maybe the final IPPT for us.

Let's pray for me that i will be able to pass everything and smoothly pass out from Academy..

Time for me to nap awhile, and later i will be going for another round of training.. bye..!

2010-10-02T21:20:00.003+08:00

Hahas!.. Been super busy with training, and next week i'm gonna palau ubin for physical and mental training. It's like a leadership camp for us and to see how we going to lead our team. It'll be obviously tiring as we need to do 10km run everyday and do some physical training which unlike what's been done in the academy.

This few days been running from 2km to 5km, trying to increase it so by than i will be able to run 10 km and also to prepare for my IPPT at the following week. Hope next week i will be able to pull thru such torturing training. Hahas!..

Today i went out with a few friends which included a friend from overseas.. It's our usual gathering.. Intend to go Marina Parade, but eventually we stay put at City Hall as John is quite tired to walk from City Hall to Marina Parade and so do i.. So we went up to Raffles City to have some food, as i am seriously hungry like mad.. keke!

Once we reached the food court at level 3, i quickly went to order my food and eat it's like as if i didn't eat for days.. Recently, i am easily hungry maybe due to the intensive training that i did. While eating we are waiting for idream, as usual she was late. Everyone has finished the food and than she arrived.. We chatted for awhile and than we head to Funan the IT mall to get John's game.

It took such a long time for him to choose a game. He kept putting and taking the game, it was really hard for him to get a game. After some struggling, he eventually bought what he wants and than we decided to look for a coffee house to have a rest. As both me and John were not feeling quite good. Both of us having flu so it's quite tiring for us to travel further.

We decided to stop at TCC, out of surprise none of us came here before. Hahas!.. We ordered some drinks for ourselves and than start chatting again..

There's a period that idream and me went to the ladies, the 2 rascals went to tweetjack idream's twiter.. Idream was still in a lost and wondering what has happened till captain tells her, than she realised what's was been post at her tweet.. It's make the whole lot of us laugh like mad, and in fact her friends was thinking that it was an entertainment. Really jokes of the day!.. Indeed we have lots of laughter today! Really enjoy hanging out with them. =)

There after we decided to head back home and once i reached home i went for a 5km run. It was really my first time to hit to 5km.. Really happy that i am able to take 5km run. Tml i was thinking to go for a run again, and this time i really need to plan where shld i run.

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Random shoots..

Engross in talking..

That's all folks..! =)

2010-09-26T13:30:00.002+08:00

Sorry for the delay, suppose to update last week before i book in, but i am too busy packing so didn't managed to blog. Lols!..

This whole week was like a disaster, every night having lesson over at the CDC and reached back camp it was like 10 - 11pm!!.. By the time, i sleep it will be 11.30 - 12 am!!~ But well, i enjoyed. Eventually, this kind of schedule made me fall sick as well adding the elements of the weather. Drenched and went in to aircon room for lesson! I think about a few of my bunk mates has already fall sick which includes me. Having very bad flu with cough. Thankfully it happens on friday which is i almost bookin-out or not, i am not sure how could i struggle to cope with the busy schedule.

Coming Monday, i will be having my FTT than i might have ISBT assessment. Gosh!.. Next week, will be in Ubin for physical training and i expect more excerises from there. Hope that the Monster instructor didn't go, or not i will faint there.. Moreover, need to be in the sea swimming..! My fear factor!! Heart pumping~ Praying hard!!

I am sick with people who are self -absorbing with themselves, give names and talk behind ppl's back. I wonder why their mouth are so big so i named them 38 gang, it's mean like auntie gossip... Hahas! Me and my friend was laughing about it. =P bleah!

Oh well, one month plus to go for passing out. Just tolerate them, by the them i will thrash everything to their faces! Gonna to be evil after passing out! Ok, stop all the complaints.. here is the photos i took over last weekends..

This is taken from a cafe, Eden Santuary strongly recommended by my friend: -

the lighting decoration.. simply love that!

Love the table decoration.. especially the small flower pot, so cute!

The tea i ordered, Lavender Tea, my 'HOT' favourite!

Main course, Chilli Crab Pasta, Yummy.. I could taste the crab meat chunks though not big but i still can taste the small chunks of crab meat. And, it's real crab meat!

Lastly, the dessert, i ordered Cream Bruee! Not bad, like the sugar coating!

Over the food there is nice, i will go there again.. Likes the environment, like the peaceful feelings and especially the service there are relatively good. They will wait for you to finish the Main course before serving the dessert without you prompting them.

Price wise, it's reasonable.. Together i spent roughly less than $25 bucks for each person (Depending what you've order) . There is some items not selling on that day, so u might want to check before you order it.

Also, you may request what type of food you want, like custom-made but you'll need to contact them before you arrive. (If i don't remember wrongly)

Location:

@ China Square Central
(Marsh & Mclennan Centre)
18 Cross Street
#01-16
Singapore 048423
Tel: 6224 2298
Website: http://www.edensanctuary.com.sg/

Just right behind Chinatown Point..

Next, i went to Clarke Quay after that and realise there is some cute lanterns too.. Here is the lanterns over there..

Ox lantern..

View of Clarke Quay

Woo!.. I like this photo..Seems fun, will try that one day =)

Another view of it..!

That's all.. Going to rest.. and need to iron my clothes too! Bye!

2010-09-11T00:13:00.002+08:00

Woke up quite late today, cause it's a rainy day.. lol! I ate KFC breakfast for today and than slept again till 3pm.

And decided to go out rather than staying at home. Went to my favourite place for dinner than i went to cck for a foot massage. It's quite cheap, 40 mins like $20 plus bucks. Worth the money in fact.

Came home and realised that i forgot to take my keys! OMG! so asked auntie to open the door and took out the spare key to unlock my room door. hahas! Joke of the day!

Tml planned to meet my friend for breakfast and than going to shop with her. But i doubt i will get anymore things. Just don't want to spend too much money on anythings. Unless, i wanted to.

Took some photos, here is the photos:

That's all folks!

2010-09-09T23:41:00.002+08:00

Wee! Booked out already.. Long weekends for sure, but Monday will have driving lesson than thereafter test of BTT and FTT, lastly shall be the pratical. Moreover, in camp i need to clear a few more things. Which will makes me real busy this time!

This few days was really fustrating, two of the nonsense ass created so much problem to the squad and yet have the cheek to play around. One of them, did the most stupidest thing is to bitch about our very own FI. Wth, was she thinking of? Can't she just think that no matter how bad is the FI is, she shouldn't disgrace her own FI.

As such actions she has did, caused internal conflicts towards FI's . Isn't ridiculous? It's not the first time, rumours been spreading like wildfire! That's show how childish she is.

Another incident, one of my idiotic squadmate caused the whole coy been punished for nothing! He sing so loudly and expect the others to think the blame. He should be thankful that the other squad did not expose what he has done.

Lastly, the same idiotic one, took my raincoat and intend to cover himself. I quietly lent him, and you know what happened next? He relactantly wearing it as though is smelly! I was so pissed and told him off straight in front of everybody and i did not GIVE HIM ANY DAMN!

I am simple, u give me fucking attitude, that's what u going to get from me. That's simple!.. He so paiseh, and still wear it on.. when he returned to me, i was like just snatched it frm him. My another squadmate asked me not to be so angry, i straight tell his face, next time u want to borrow things ask frm me personally. If want it, take it sincerely. No sincerely, that's what i am going to do and say. No more ego for you guys. I HAD ENOUGH!

This shall go on with me till i pass out. You want fucking attitude, i shall fulfil ur wish!..

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Today booked out early BUT was not that early. Why? Cause idiot ppl did idiot things. My squadmates did not us a favour by maintain the things well in the room, and next, we got screw by FI.. I can't blame them either, is my fault for not reminding them before they leave. I told my other bunkmates that i will resolve by monday. Hope it works well!

Oh ya! something happy.. Got the camera and it's Nikkon L110. I'm still trying the functions and so on. Hope it can take great photos for my POP and other stuffs.

Here are some trial shots from it..

That's all folks! =)

2010-09-05T02:38:00.003+08:00

Well... I got a NEW laptop today from someone.. Got the surprise, but still not ready to accept him back.

Now i am using the new laptop Fujitsu L series, quite fun but a little confusing, perhaps due to the new window. Never use Window 7, so it's making me confuse and now slowly getting in use of it.

Just installed the Antivirus and so on.. -.-''

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Today i went out and get a new PT shirt and so on, and went to meet my sister. She bring my niece today, i was so happy to see her.. She was giggling at first, when i want to carry her, she refused and cried.

After sometime making her laugh, she give in and let me carry her everywhere.. Naughty rascal.. She even drool and use her head to clean her mouth on my shirt.. -.-''

Somemore, she nearly let her little legs stuck and the bench by jumping while seeing the kids playing in the playground. She still can giggle than cry again.. laugh out loud, unpredictable kid ya!

Just love her too much.. hahas! Oh well, i need to get to bed. Decided to go for a run before booking tml. see ya!

2010-09-03T22:08:00.003+08:00

Woohoo! Got to booked out early today as Coy Commander wants all the trainees to go back on time without any further delay! I was delighted upon hearing it! Woosh!..

For once, i book out at 5 plus but there's lot of confusion still.. Not sure to let the muslim go first or the non-muslim, than after much the Station Inspector decided to let us go early! Yeah, mad happy!

After walk out, me and my gal friend took bus to Lot 1 for a walk than accompanied her to wait for her BF than i went to buy food home to eat. I was so exhausted so i decided to take a cab instead of LRT. Upon arrival, i immediately change, bath and unpacked my stuff, eat and watch my favourite Channel 8 show "Unriddle". Mad awesome show! Simply loves the story, perhaps is a little related to my current work, which force me to think in a way to crack a case.

It's rather easy to detect the subject, in reality might not be that easy? hahas!..

Oh well, anyway i have passed my SBT, drill test and etc.. Now we left 4 more and lastly DRIVING! I am so thrill, cause which means i am going to pass out anytime soon!! yeah yeah yeah! Speculating that we will be going to have POP instead of POC! GOsh.. if that's the case, i will be even more busy with it.. cause before one month of the POP, everyday we have to MARCH, MARCH, MARCH! that's crazy! I hate marching to a core, seriously!

But no choice, the choice i have made force me to do so, so i have no choice to comply. Next week schedule will be even more pack, we will be in the express stream in order to pass out this year!.. *gasp*.. Will have night lessons again.. -.-''

Which that's tell me, less sleep work more.. Driving estimating starting by 2 weeks later.. -.-'' STRESS! Well, i will try my best to get it done with and PASS OUT!

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I was so surprised that one of my squad mate came and pour his feelings to me and my gal friend. Even though, both of our families known each other but we hardly talk to each other regarding personal matters. Mostly we joke and teasing each other during training as well, cause both our parents are friends.. so more or less we can make fun of each other. He was also the one when i am sad, he came to console me to talk me out.

He's a person with no biases to anyone and will not doubt any person even that person is been speak ill by others. i admire his character.. But surely not my cup of tea.. haha! Back to topic, i didn't see him feel so sad before, all along i know him as a chirpy, jovial person.. sudden sadness from him was a surprise to me.

He told that his relationship which hurts him alot, and which reminds me mine as well..

I understand how does it feels when someone is been severely neglected, and always been told that the other parties is not free and etc.. It's almost the same!

Than we slowly talk, initally he thought that i don't understand, after which i told him mine he was shocked that we been through the same thing! just that i am a gal, he is a guy.. -.-''

I slowly console him and he turns much better and so on.. And he told me some other stuff what he feels about the squad. He also told me what's went wrong and etc.. As well, now he know what has happened to me, and he is also willingly to help me too..

After that talk, both of us was like a relief and my gal friend was relieved too, cause we didn't know someone would share the same thoughts as us. Just that we don't say it out.. gees!

Today happened another incident, i was so mad pissed with THAT BITCH! My friend was injured and hitted her head on the field. Me and my buddy quickly attended to her, THAT BITCH was saying that the ground was so soft how could she injured that bad! I was so furious about it!

Seriously, HER BRAIN just want to say "she's chao keng"! She just presumed that i don't understand what's she mean. I just stared at her and she went off.. I was wondering instead of helping, you are here saying such things, what would you feel if i do the same to you?

What's more, after i helped her and my buddy bring her back to barrack.. After my breakfast, my gal friend told me that the BITCH and the gang talked about my friend who was injured. I was so so FURIOUS...

If i wasn't in a disciplinary unit, for sure i will scold whatever vulgarities to her and SCREAM AT MY TOP OF MY VOICE! i cannot imgaine such unpassionate person is in the squad!

I tell myself one more time i am going to her this i will confront her and ask her what's problem with her.. seriously she needs to see PPSD..! and i wonder how she pass her psychology test at the first place. SHE IS SUCH A IRRITATING BITCH..!

I dislike her for saying things were so untrue and PRESUME things which is not the facts! She loves gossiping things which is so untrue.. if she dislike you, she will keep condemn you!

Imagine, in the test I WAS WITH THE SAME GROUP WITH HER, but i tolerate and i even try to help her in her reporting. She is a future superivor, she is so scare of reporting and talking.. that what's the point for you to KEEP BITCHING ABOUT OTHERS to other people.

When i am trying to help her, she just throw her temper by saying " nah, you so good, you do la!"

some more in front of the instructor. The instructor got pissed off, and told her "I want you to do" she kept quiet and do. I wanted to laugh inside, and instructor tell us not to help her, let her do herself. Than she started to panic again..

This time i help her randomly and the rest know i have gave up.. the rest still trys to help, but nothing went in her ear.. in the end, we lost one mark to full marks! -.-'''

Can't be bothered anymore.. hahas! Going to knock off to my bed soon.. TATA!

2010-08-29T14:59:00.002+08:00

I don't know what to say about it anymore.. I am a friend to you and your family. Not a gf since we are together. So what's the point now for you to tell your family that i am your gf? Isn't too late?

Going out with you, everytime you tell ur dad that you are going out with friend..! Than now, you say that you see me as your wife? isn't contridicting? I am getting more and more piss with the whole things!

I am so fustrated and devasted!.. No longer how to face you anymore, you are making me disappointed in you!

Nvm, i will be back in camp so i will not be able to think about you and fully focus on my training! Couldn't be bothered! ARGH!

i am tired on answering you!

2010-08-28T13:58:00.003+08:00

Finally i have changed to a better template and i loves it. Much brighter loves the toast grumpy face. hahas!

Oh well, been going for training lately, in sense went for run to improve my speed still not good yet. Stamina still weak, running fast will cause me to see lots of stars.. haha.. but still i am determine to improve as much as possible, as soon i am going to PO camp and i will be running 10km everyday without fail! Which i do not wish to see that..!

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Recently, i am not in a talking terms with my bf anymore. Cause he really breaks my heart badly, i know he's trying his best to change. But i couldn't forget what he has done to me and neglected me for so long. Now than give me the attention i want which i feel is a little to late.

I couldn't myself to open to him anymore and he been wanted to meet me, but.. i can't.. the moment i see him my heart is pain. Everyday, he smsed me, i am pondering whether to return the msg in the end, i choose not to reply him. Only at times, than i will reply him. Not sure why everytime msg him i need to think so much, and it's like a chore for me to send/reply him. Perhaps i have been badly hurt.

I know he's been waiting outside my house everyday and everyday i see flowers and cards. He wrote me many cards, everytime i cry.. Cause now than he realised that he's wrong and doesn't want lost me. But why at the first place he does it? This question always floods in my mind..

He cooked for me spaghetti yesterday, it's nice but when thinking of him it pains again.. I know he's always near me, and he should know why i always get to know things that he presume i doesn't know. And, this get me paranoid.. Everytime checking where he is and make sure i don't get to see him. The moment i see him either i cry or turn emo..

Nevertheless, the flowers sent everyday melts my heart and wanted to forgive him, but recalling the memories make me feel pain which i hesitate and choose not to forgive him. Imagine for a year i have been treated as though controlled by him, his demands of sleep is higher and work too, put me aside and can no need to msg me for mths? and etc.. Everytime i have to be the one to accomadate him, everytime i am the one to please him and not to do what he doesn't like.. No matter what he wants to do, i have to please him.. than what about me..

He always say one-sided love given to me is so tiring than am i not tiring?? He always make comment like this which dishearten me. How much effort i have put as good as throw to the ocean.. Cook for him, wait for him outside his office, surprises for him and so on.. just throw to the ocean and can't be seen.

When i asked for a ring that which cutted previously he can say no need to buy and so on.. excuses all comes up.. and some other stuff.. perhaps this are not necessary?? I couldn't bother about it anymore.. just as simple as that..

What makes me more turn off is about reglion.. He always wanted me to covert to christian but i am reluatant about it. Everytime he brings it up and ended up arguments.. He promised me that what reglion i am in, he wouldn't interfere but in the end, he wants his own way.. I have discussed with him long time ago and we strive a promise.. but.. he broke it..! Everytime trying to psycho me and peach me on this which SERIOUSLY turn me and piss me off.

This is a taboo for me to discuss and yet he does it! I went super emo when he talks about it and i will flare my temper.. For me, reglion thingy is sensitive and every one has their rights to choose who they have faith with. Not for anyone to choose for people!

Due to all this, it makes me keep recalling what he has done and said.. Everytime it's a pain!..

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Enough of my relationship issues, hope time will heals my wounds.. Oh yes! YOG.. recently it just over and i am honoured to do the event with great people. I can't take any photo due to some sensitive issues and so on.. plus i have no time for phototaking as i am too busy on duty..

Only managed to do some snap shoots on the cuties mascots Leo and Merlyn with other ppl..

The 2 mascots was so adorable as they were jumping, dancing and fighting with each other everytime back to their rest point.. even the officals has the hard time to pull them in to rest.. I heard from my friend that she saw the 2 mascots ran and upon seeing all the senior officers coming out, they salute them.. made the whole group laugh.. they are really great awesome entertainer.. especially towards workforce personnel like us.. No matter how tired they are, they will try their best to entertain every single of us.. Kudos!

I really miss them with my working partners.. Madly awesome people, although it's tiring but working with great ppl, you will never feel tired..

All memories shall be always in my heart and mind.. Ok, i am tired.. later i am running.. bye bye!

2010-08-23T18:41:00.002+08:00

This week was mad crazy, finally i decided to tell my feelings to him. And decided to cool down and not meeting him for the moment. It's make me feel pain, in fact i do not want him to know but eventually i say it out. I couldn't take it anymore! Simply to say it's on my nerve..

I am a person will not say unless it's really on my nerve or not, i will let it be. The pain in me is killing me. I couldn't bring myself in forgiving him reason be it, he always not been there for me and always choose to ignore my prescene. In fact, there's more reason. The most killing is the way he treated me, i couldn't take it anymore.

I cried almost everyday, every moment. My eyes is swollen and pain.. My heart shattered into many pieces and it's still bleeding.

When he look for me, i am scared, stress and feel pain in my heart. He really hurt me alot alot alot..! Hurt me till to the state i lost all trust and confidence. Emptiness, Emo-ness all befall to me. Many times i tried to cover my emotion during work, but always my supervisor could tell that i am not in a good shape to work. But he knows, i am trying my best to perform.

My friends around me always try their best to entertain me as much as possible even though they do not know what's the reason that i am so emotional. What they know, everytime i go to the ladies i will tear and everytime i see the apologise sms i will tear..

I have been asking myself why am i so pain? Why i am always the one who get so much hurt? When the intial stage i also get hurt from others, and now is him. What i know i have putted so much effort but always been chucked it aside.

Today i went to somewhere and the cafe was quiet and i found sudden peace, i switch off my mobile for awhile and relax, sitting down there listening to my favourite songs. The peace which i never have before.. Suddenly i remember i have been wanted to go to a place, but i always lost myself or either forgot how to go. But i believe one day i will get myself there again.

I just want to be alone, just want to relax and find my calmness my thinking and myself back... But can i get back what i want? It's an unknown answer for me. And, whether should i forgive him, my answer is a unknown. If you were to ask me, whether i still love him, i don't know how to answer. What i want to know could my heart be mend back and trust him again.... everything is an unknown.

2010-08-17T02:18:00.002+08:00

Hee.. Just want to do a short update about my experiences in YOG. Well, it's really fun! I did on Marina Bay Sands, City Celebration and as well Suntec City. The food is awesome, execpt for some certain days the food wasn't that nice in fact. It's alittle torture to my stomach. However, once you are hungry, anything just whack to the tummy! Especially, i am still sick and my voice is really sexy on radio. Hee!

What i really loves is my team mates! They are really fun people, and they really take care their men well. Without demand, they will come to assist you no matter what happen. Example, i have some problem talking to a foreginer, one of my colleague just came to my rescue and get the person to his side and solve the case. It's so awesome, isn't it?!

If this happen in my squad, i doubt i get the help that fast. Seriously, not because of what, is the people attitude. With a right attitude, you need not to worry, as you know if you face a situation there's always people around you to assist you. That's what i want. It's so simple!..

Well can't say much, i hope after this deployment, they will grow up! hahas!

I have learned lots of things, and learn to be more relax in some certain things. It's also create some confident in myself after much demoralising by certain people (hate to core!). I also learned to be more decisive in my certain decision, got to learn this, as at times you are at your own and you maybe the in-charge if there's no one can make the decision.

It's feel great that i have learned a few things, and hope i can learn more for the next few days before my return to camp! I think i will miss them after the YOG! hahaha!

2010-08-10T16:36:00.002+08:00

Hmm.. Been wondering some certain issues that have never occured before, however it's occured in my mind recently.. or i would say it's been in my sub-concious but it so-called "re-surface" to my mind.

Been recalling about the past that has happened to me, suddenly all emo-ness comes to me.. perhaps due to recent rest, those issues that i have never think of, suddenly all float in my mind plus some incidents happened. Simply to say, i doesn't know how to deal with, it's like everything been telling me that somewhere is wrong. Need to do some things on it..!

Yesterday, went out with a friend and talk to him regards the issues, he said that i need to calm myself. He understands that i have so much pressure, so much things to take care of.. He also knows that it's not easy to cope with things..

I also hope to travel overseas to make myself better, but currently leaves are all been blocked, and have to stay in Singapore! That's even make me unbearable..!

Any idea to make myself better? hope someone, can give me a better idea! Go for a spa? or a one-day getaway to somewhere in Singapore with no ones know where i will be? - Argh! what should i do??

2010-08-07T11:19:00.002+08:00

Yo, back for blogging.. been really busy and it's already almost been 3 mths in training. To be frankly, i don't really like the ppl in my squad they made me broke down a few times, and my patience to them has already reached to a limit. But i do have adorable ppl around. I have make a few good friends/buddies. They really gave me the moral support and they are more willingly to revise homework with you when you really needed the most. This what i call real friends..!

I did my law test just this week on Thursday night, and the results is far much more than i have expected. Not thinking of getting good score as i am sick once again. But this time, really out of my expectation and scored of 87 percent which is far much more than i thought. I thought i will get a just pass which is 70 percent but it went to 87 percent.

I am so contented of the marks even though it wasn't the top score but still i am proud of myself. My friend has made me remembered the important points and revised with me many times as i tends to forget some points. This really made me remembered during the test and scored that high scored. I promised myself to gv her a hug, if i passed all.. and eventually i did that and i almost teared.. but i didn't.. if i did, she will tear with me..! haha..

After all this testes, i am officially deployed for SYOG! I'm so thrilled of it..! It'll be a mths deployment and i hope that i can pick up asap and learn as much as possible. hee..!

This whole 2 weeks, i am really emotional.. cried many times due to i'm in high pressure of stress. My friends hugged me and understand what situation i am facing! Sometime, i do hope certain understanding from ppl could be given, but however it disappointed me alot..

I have been wanted to talk things out to my dearest but he always so busy.. i do not want to bother him that much. So i bottled all the things in my heart.! Sometimes, i tell him he would say things when i just purely wants it to be say it out to make me feel better.. i just need a listening ears!

Sometime say is easier but what come to real life is not that easy to deal...

I shut myself for months not willing to tell anything and everything to anyone, which caused to break down and turn very emo. My friend is the first one to realise that i have changed alot, and she really sit with me and cry with me.. I even break down in front of my supervisor-in-charge.. he also quite worried for me, as i face so much pressure and scared that one day i may collaspe..

Many ppl though i am as strong as i appeared to them, but in fact i am not.. anything happen i am the weakest. I always put up the strong front in front of them and will never cry in front of them, i do not want them to worry, but who really know what i actually feels? who really understand what kind of pessure i have been facing??

Friends been asking to confide with them, but i couldn't do that.. i don't know hw to explain it.. perhaps many things has happened around me, and changed my preception. I used to be jovial, like to talk things out.. but now, i am not myself anymore..

I feel so hard to explain things to ppl, i can't bring myself well.. what should i do? When my dad is around, he's always the one who i will talk to, he's the only one can open my heart to talk to and a person that i can vent out my feelings, and be a real me.. now he's gone, i can't really find a right person to really confide too.. Not saying my bf is not good, but...

I don't know what i am saying, i am just not myself...

However, i still will do what i really what i want to do.. and not to disappoint ppl who's around me and support me all this while..!

2010-08-01T14:55:00.002+08:00

Yeah! I managed to struggle through the first week of tests.. Passed by shooting and PDT, next coming up is Law test 1. I'm so worried and anxious, as this is going to concern about my deployment. Hope it's goes well!

This weekend i've been studying, but not much been absored, so my friends called me out for dinner and have a heartly chat with them.. It makes me feel better, perhaps due to we are the same, so they understand how i feel. They gave me lots of encouragements and they suggested to train together after my classes, which i am so delighted to hear that..!

After having dinner with them, i went back home to study again and wait for dearie to pass me things.. In fact, i wanted to sleep but he insisted me to wait for him first so i waited for him than doze off..

Really hope that after this 2 weeks of torture will get over asap than next will be deployment and finally is the Puala Ubin camp.. I will be super busy till October, than prepare of testes and etc and therafter it'll be my graduation.. Argh! So damn busy!!! It feels like never ending story.. lol.. Just pray hard that everything will be fine...

Later will be going to book in.. going to rest awhile.. bye..

2010-07-25T03:56:00.003+08:00

Been so busy after my course... And, moreover i have to shift to another wing due to some event. As well, i will be deployed to somewhere for a mth or so.. So anxious and worried about the deployment as i have been selected to "A" division. The most busiest of all. Crazy!

This coming week, i will be very very busy, as i am going to have many tests and prepare for the deployment. Heard from in-charge that even weekend i may have extra lesson, well what to do.. for deployment i have to do it!

But i am worried that i have no time for others.. i am so tired and confused.. In additional, with worried.. I doesn't know how to describe this such feelings.. really lost!..

After deployment, it may be the worst of all.. what should i do? Stress...

I am getting more and more tired...

2010-07-18T10:36:00.002+08:00

Well.. busy busy is all in my mind. On course for the past one week, and it's cohoresive with many agencies. It's fun to know more ppl, and get to know what they do in their own agencies.

But however, i still like to resume my basic course as i don't want any further delay. I was expected to graduate this year end, but it's seem that it may be delayed to next jan. Argh! Too many events happening in this year which lots of deployment been made by the management. But nevertheless, we have to listen to it and to do it that's of course.

hmm.. many things been floating in my mind recently.. i have tons of things to do and to clear. As well, some other issues been running in my mind too.. It's so hard for me to juggle so many things at one goal. Really feeling tired. I teared countless times but..

Sometime, i just hope more understanding and compromise could be given, but am i asking too much? well, i don't know. Maybe i am too tired in this course. haha..

Many times i have been asking myself whether was it a right decision to hang it on there. Many times, i feel that i want give up. But there's always ppl encouraging me to go further and don't give up easily. I am hanging on there..

Ok, i have great awesome news to announce it.. I failed my IPPT BUT... i passed my 2.4km run at the time of 16.11 mins.. It never happen to me before. I never know that i can run that fast and it's a great improvement according to my instructor. He was shocked that i could run at this timing. So i am going to buck up more to run even faster.

And, why i still fail my IPPT simply was a misundestanding between me and my instructor. He told me that i have passed my shuttle run but however, i have a feeling that i failed by 0.2 secs. However, i still listen to him and didn't re-attempt the shuttle run. When the results are out both me and my instructor was shocked! I can sense a gulit from him, so i didn't make much comment. It's been so hard for him to take care so many students and many of them are ladies. He still encourage me no matter what. And, he give me even more encouragement and believe in me that i can do it for the next round, which will happen within this month before the deployment. I am praying hard that this coming round i can get a pass or at least a sliver!!! haha..

oh.. i also found a lovely boy called Declan Galbraith who sang such nice songs like "Tears in the heaven" i was shaken by his voice! Here is the video of him singing "Tears in the heaven" :-

And there's another song by him it's "2007 Spring ZDF( Italian Tirol ) An Angel " i was so amaze by his singing.. made me falling love on him... lol.. here is another of his video..:-

Hope you guys enjoy!! =)

2010-07-04T12:45:00.003+08:00

Hmm.. Coming week i'm going to have my IPPT, hope it turns out well.. Pretty anxious..! Friday went for swimming lesson, it's killing me! Why? Firstly, i've been drowned before and i somehow forgot the swimming techniques. Secondly, the trainer punished us more than actual swimming. Lastly, my googles snap during the training. How funny is that?- This lesson taught me that never buy a cheapo brand! Hahahas..

Moreover, i look like a fool thinking where to go after such trauma.. gosh! dumb isn't it?! oh well, everyone has their first time.. hees..

This week was somehow better than normal.. why? cause finally there's friend who truly understand and appreciate me! I am so delighted..! That's for sure! I am somehow quite easy to be contented, no need any bootlicking to people or to gain any un-necessary attention from anyone. I am that kind of person. However, sometimes it didn't turn out that way. People tends to think otherwise. Well, human are human.. bounds to have differences.. But, i found someone who talks out and willing to share ideas. Which that's good enough!- don't misunderstand, she's a lady! Is hard to find in my training ground.. hahas..

...well, truly contented..!

And, i am still considering whether to go for training later on..? cause my instructor did inform us not to do training as we are going to have IPPT.. i think he's worried that anyone could injured themselves, which i am scare too..

For instance, yesterday i went out with dearie.. while he's fixing his customer computer and i am waiting for him near the place and went for groceries shopping, there is a "bimbo" - i would call it sudden appear at the escalator and bump onto me. It nearly cost me to injure myself. The boyfriend was somehow gulit upon questioning. But the "bimbo" don't even dare to look at me..! Well, if u know u are at fault, you should jolly well look at the person and apologise! I don't accept your boyfriend to apologise on your behalf. It's irks that when someone is at fault and the person purely ignore and the other party whose with the person had to apologise. It's so irritating! It happens everyday and i see it too many times!

If i am injured due to the incident and not able to join IPPT i will be mad piss and i will screw the person upside down.. I told dearie about this matter, he was shocked to hear that too! haha..

Ok, still need to consider whether to give myself a break or do a short run later on.. pretty tired, cause yesterday went to catch a late night movie at Woodlands, and today i will need to book in again! need to prepare stuffs! Argh! i hate this feeling!!!! oh well, i am tired i shall go and rest later need to iron my uniform and pack my stuffs..! byee..

2010-06-26T14:06:00.002+08:00

Hahahas.. Freedom day.. So busy till can't even blog in here. Moreover, i am so busy with my work and studies. The studies is getting more and more tough, well, it's law lesson.. The training is getting more intensive as i am going to get deploy to somewhere. Perhaps may meet my friend over there! Hee..

Yesterday night i went to Bukit Brown cemetery with a group of friends for some investigation. It was so fun to see so many interesting gadgets! It's awesome! It blew away upon seeing that... lol.. Fun to play with it! hee...

The investigation lasted for a few hours.. So tiring! but it was fun..! Met new friends there too!! haha.. Somehow yesterday i am pretty worried about their safety as Bukit Brown is getting complicated in some ways.. Didn't imagine that there's so many cars and bikers around there! It was pretty late hours.. hmm..

I am so amazed by people persistent by "so-called" harassing my friend by checking my wherabouts.. Isn't it ridiculous? If you're so interested to know about me, you can jolly well contact me. Even though, you do not have my number, in this world there's email or msn?! Isn't it so simple?! Why must it complicate things and disturb people. Thick skin!..

Oh well, i'm sick and tired with them.. It's so irks! haha.. can't be bothered anyway. If i hear it again for sure i will scold.. i can't tolerate people to disturb my friend. bleah!

Ok.. got to rest.. bye..!

2010-06-06T01:28:00.002+08:00

Oh great, i am back in blogging.. woohoo! I am excited and smell of freedom even though just for weekends, i doesn't mind. But however, my idiotic friends nearly caused us for not able to smell the freedom for weekends. I was so damn pissed! Told many times to comply the rule and regulation with been implement. Not me who want to enforce it, but it was set for us to follow and not for us to break any of the rules that been set by the mangement.

However things happened.. one of the friend who sleep the same room with me did the most fu**king things which is the most unforgivable. She wore so "sexy" out of the room and went to bath and what happen next is apparently one of the instructor walked pass and saw it. He was so pissed and "invited" the big shot. And our trouble kicks in..

Do you know, how horrify i am? As i am one of the IC even i am such a small fry in it but i am so horrified that the whole squad might get confinement while others still taking for granted..!

When the moment, another of my room mate told me what has happened, my mind keep flooding with thoughts of what's going to happen next, and guess what.. It really happened... I heard the announcement saying that our whole squad need to get down and next is all the scolding and screaming comes in... It's already all expected...!

I was blaming myself for not been more firm to that lady and to tell her off.. If i am more firm to her maybe things could be prevent??

Next is big shot also mentioned that our 2 rooms was super noisy and i was thinking, my room always sleeps early and didn't make much noise.. But we been putted into blame, and i was wondering was it the other room. As i recalled, there's one night the room was particular so noisy...

When the big shot asked us, if we know which room raise up our hands to tell him.. but none of us would want to put our friends into trouble.. And, so-called tell us if any such things going to happen again.. we were to stay in during weekends..! That's even make us more pissed with it..

So after much, we went back, some was crying, some were angry which this includes me.. Than, they asked for conference and "that" room confessed was their room been so noisy and that culprit also apologize. To be honest, i agree to one of our lesson to seek for forgiveness is difficult. Yes, i couldn't put down whatsoever has happened.. Moreover, things been told many times and yet none of them has put it to heart and landed us into such troubles.

I am mad that one of them didn't do her part by reminding them, if she could put alittle effort things maybe different. I am not blaming her or what, just want everyone in the team to put effort to remind each other. And, importantly takes things seriously when needed.

Always thinks for the rest not urself. If u keep thinking for urself and left the rest into trouble none of us will forgive. By than, it will be too late...!

I also dislike ppl, just using their mouth to talk rather than work on it.. which happens so many times even now.. they thinks we owns them and wanna to be the hero.. but they nv thought of with this attitude it will kill many of us or irritate many of the ppl, which includes me! Well, you guys know my temper very well.. i don't like ppl just talk without working on it. Even me, i ask ppl to do things, but i still do what i need to do with them without letting feel that i am the person who only know how to ask ppl to do..

Oh well, i can't expect too much either just hope they realise their mistake and change to a better person..

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Today something horrify me, and i tot i will die of it..

Suddenly i feel chill and shiver in the morning, despite my knee pain i tried to run for awhile but invaild.. i make an u-turn to my house and i feel super lethagic.. when dearie came to my huse it eventually got even worse..

Dearie sent me to clinic first as i getting more pale.. than upon reaching clinic waiting for my turn, i start to feel even more weird.. my chest turn tight.. can't breathe through nose.. and started wheezing!!!

Dearie went in to check my turn, just nice it was my turn but my condition got even worse and my hand was numb and my lips were numb too..than the doctor in the clinic got scared as i was crying and can't breathe..

The doctor immediately served me Neb ventolin after, i feel much better but still unwell.. they gave me medication but i still feel wasn't right.. when to eat some food b4 consuming my medication.. i nearly puked!

Dearie quickly sent me to hospital for better examination, upon reaching the hospital everything happen so fast.. After screening, my temperature went up instead of down and my respiration wasn't that good, so the nurses gave me another round to neb ventolin..

The doctor ordered urine test, x-ray, blood test and drip.. what's got me to the worse next is the plug on my hand for the drip.. he inserted on my right hand which my veins were so pathetic small and it's so painful on movement and on drip..

I bear the pain for 2 hours or so before discharging from hospital.. when they remove it, it was so pain too!!! i didn't have so much pain in the past with drip.. this was the first time i feel it.. oh god! how wish that i wasn't there..! it's a torture to me..!

Afer discharging, dearie bring me to eat some food and some entertainment as i feel a little better to move around despite of the knee pain. Perhaps maybe due to my unknowningly i am sick which affects my knee too..? but whatever, my knee still alittle pain but not as pain as the other day.. So after much we head back home and rest..

Now is my turn to sleep as it is late now.. bye..=)

2010-05-28T01:35:00.002+08:00

Oh well! Been extermely busy nowadays.. Doing lots of physical training, knew many new friends. But of course some irritating ppl, who thinks highly of themselves. Can't be bothered anyway.. They served their rights on doing things which not suppose to do and it's an offences to do that.

Rushing some slides and going to hand in to my so-called lecturer on Monday, and i will have a 3 mins presentation telling about myself.. duh..! I just got it done earlier so came to update my lifeless blog..

I am busy with my physical training and my law studies (soon).. I'm going insane on this, seriously. The moment i saw the book earlier today, i almost fainted. The books is so thick and there is 9 books for me to consume to my brain.. How nice har..

The lecturer was saying that sooner or later, we will be issue a laptop for each person so we could do our self-study. How awesome is that? each of us getting one laptop, but but.. we can't bring it back home as it's campus property.. haiz.. lol..

I'm going insane soon...

* Thanks for friends concern.. i do sincerely appreciate each and everyone concern. Thanks so much guys!

2010-05-16T22:05:00.006+08:00

Today i'm sick with flu again.. god! But after taking some medicine, i am much better for sure.. However, today suppose to meet dearie to go Suntec for Home Team Convention but the medicine makes me sleep the whole day. hahas..

Met dearie in the afternoon and have lunch together, and he told me that what's going on about his phone. I was so damn pissed upon hearing it. It started when dearie put in facebook saying that someone is thick skin and not returning phone. You know what happen?

He told me that the BITCH went to make comment saying that my dearie own her money for a year and so on.. Than in my mind, what's going to do with it? So dearie went to shoot her saying that due to her INDECIDIVNESS which causes the whole problem. Than she further comment..

And she commented on dearie's profile, so since she's posting in his profile, so he went to her profile to comment her. You know what has happen next? She deleted dearie as friend. Oh clever isn't it??

You want people to think you are a good gal and inncocent? Prove you are the one right? God damn it. Don't act anymore, bitch! Why you can make nasty comment on dearie's one and he can't do it?? Such act make me feels that how childish you are! If dearie's dare to own up, why can't you? I thought your skin is as thick as an ELEPHANT? So how come turns out to be so THIN? Can't accept any comment from others, while other can accept your comment? This tells that you are selfish, and a person who thinks that everything is right. And you are exactly like the other one who you likes to hang out with.

"You are a person who make use of people, you will use of them in order to gain your whatsoever motive. You make use of dearie's friend by telling them that dearie breaks up with you and you twisted your words. In order to gain back dearie, you make use whatsoever people to go against us. Even the money, you make use of it to see whether dearie will return back to you? All sorts of things you have done/cause does your so called friends know? In order to get him back or for your own gain, you used extreme ways. (i will not say as to protect your interest, if people got to know this, i think they will get even shock) and i doubt they know about it, right? Cause basically, you lied to them and cover yourself so well."

You can't take any single nasty remarks from others, included me! cause i am your rival.. How much pain you have caused in me, i have been quietly taking it that's also include the quarrels you inflicted the other day. You go around telling people that i'm the so-called third party, made me been question by so many people. Ok now i will tell the fucking truth here..

Firstly, you are the one who inital the breakup much earlier, i saw the sms-es you have sent and before i enter into the relationship (i confirm with dearie to make sure all settled before i agree in the relationship) you and him have met with each other and requested whatsoever last hug below your house. And said that, that shall be it..

After days, persume it's over so we get together.. about a month, for no reason i've been called by friends telling me that you have called and told them some things. Upon hearing i am so damn fucking pissed! You made that as if i'm the third party! Fucking bitch! Make me have to answer it one by one. You make use of people trust in you and you tells them lies..

At the same time, dearie's friend called him too. He gets the exactly same thing..! WTF! When i got to know i nearly went crazy!!

Than, you called to dearie and demand for money.. i remember dearie keep asking you how much you want? But in the phone, you keep saying some other things.. WTF! than he asked you what you want? you kept saying about money. When ask you how much you want, you fucking don't know how to state the amount. Than ask for the phone, you say will return.. ask you for amount of money, you don't know how to say. When dearie state the amount of $800, you say "NO" .. Than hangs up..! - i saw it and hear it by my own ears, bitch!

You make use of another person to attack me at the same time. How smart har..!

In between, dearie tries to contact you, but no replies from you.. How smart when you said that dearie didn't respond to you..! That's absolutely ridiculous ok!

Gradually, this year gathering you demanded the payment again and pulled me in too.. oh how great is that! But i do not want to quarrel with you, as you are not worth for me to quarrel with. And i do not want to be mark down as crazy woman. So i just keep quiet to listen what fucking comment you want to say. You agreed about the $800 payment and it breaks into 3 installment payments.. (If you have agreed last year, you should have the money long time ago, bitch!)

Dearie emailed you about the phone, you replied, upon recieving the last payment you'll return the phone. But however, we don't see any action/replies been done after he has made the payment and comes along with an attached reicipt. So what's now

You bitch, dares to make comment and doesn't want to return the phone as promised. Now due to dearie make comment about you, you deleted him as friend. Fine, neither of us wants to be your friend. But still, you have to return the phone as promised. Since you are not replying, i shall post it here for you or your friends to tell you.

If you denies it, fine.. dearie hold the email.. shall attach it, if you wanted to.. Simple as that, if you do not want more things to be reveal, the best is you communicate with dearie in returning the phone. Or not, since you are busy in reading emails i shall post it here to let you read.

Same thing, REPLY TO DEARIE ON DETAILS OF RETURNING THE PHONE

2010-05-15T22:51:00.003+08:00

Hi.. just back from JB and i am so over excited with some great awesome news! But i can't tell it now, shh! keeping it on the top confidential level. Only a few of my close friends and dearie of course know about the happening.

But, there is sad thing, is i scare it wouldn't go that smoothly as so hiccups occuring now. Just hope that it'll get solve real soon. I'm so worry till sick now.. Hope god will enlighten me!

Praying hard!..

**Also i am so amaze with someone, remember i was blogging on that particular bitch who make herself like a crazy woman shouting, arguing in front of many people? Ok, my dearie has returned all the whatsoever money she has demanded, but she's so THICK SKIN and never return the PHONE which she borrows from my dearie when she needs it, and yet she demand money from dearie.

If at the first place YOU have no intention on returning the phone, YOU should NOT have demanded on the money. If you WANT money than you RETURN the phone. Don't think that in this world there is FREE lunch! Own other ppl phone and yet still have CHEEK to ask ppl for money. Isn't contridicting enough??

I return the statement that you've made:

" YOU own it since last year, and you have NO intention on RETURNING it. And no replies from you, ARE YOU RUNNING AWAY? or what???"

I should say you're COWARD! Dares to say with no fucking ACTION been done!! So what's now??!! Trying to hide or what??? And please, don't lie or trying to twist your words..!

NOW is my turn SHOUTING AT YOU! don't act as if NOTHING as happen! You dare to lie to people, but i can tell you, YOU CAN'T LIE TO ME! I KNOW ALL YOUR THINGS BITCH!

Reply to dearie WHEN and HOW are you going to return the phone!

2010-05-08T16:30:00.002+08:00

This few days i'm sick.. down with flu once again.. can't believe it had it twice in a row. Gosh!

Before i'm sick me and dearie went to JB to watch movies. Finally i watch Ip man 2!! i also have watched Iron man 2 at Woodlands causeway the day before. Woohoo!

Back to Jb trip, dearie wasn't feeling that well, so i'm pretty worried for him. But he says he's fine so i just observed him. We went to Pelangi there to have Dominos Pizza, we ordered, Stuff crust chilli chicken, garlic bread, chicken sticks and 2 coke. The stuff crust and chicken stick is not bad other than that it's totally not nice. =(

After we had that it's start to pour heavily. So dearie suggusted to wait till it get smaller. But in between i've drenched alittle, it still wouldn't harm. When the rain gets smaller we went back to City Square and sitted at Coffee Bean and have my fav stuff..

Than we head to arcade played some game than back to the cinema to watch Ip man 2. That's when things happened, i started to sneeze but not bad. Gradually, i start to feel giddy, i thought that was fine as i got some motion sickness.

After the show, we had dinner at Innercity, Level 3, Tomato Express..

Awesome Tomato soup.

Grilled chicken with pasta, it also taste nice!

Chicken chop with black pepper sauce, not that nice as commented by dearie.

Dinner finished we headed back to custom, that's when it got even worse. By the time reached home i declared myself i'm sick for sure. Cause i keep sneezing non-stop and cough badly.

Yesterday went to see doctor, doctor said that i have some inflammation on the throat so asked me to rest not to nurse anyone. So i listen to it and stop currently. I believed after drenched i went aircon room so it causes the sickness to come very fast. T.T

Oh well, i'm tired again.. the medicines really making me very drowsy.. bye!

2010-05-04T17:05:00.002+08:00

Oh well, been irritated by some stuff.. and decided to call off one assignment, since i have hurt my arm for a good damn reason and as well, broken my 2 toe nails for nothing. Did one snoobish patient which irks alot!

Told them i'm not feeling well, they decided asked me not to come. Well, i don't give a damn.. seriously, there's so many things to do and to remember.. And expect to do this and that which is totally ridiculous. This family have no respect, which got me irritates alot.

So since that's the way, so be it! i shall rest at home and relax rather than stress myself taking care that snoobish people!.. =P

Yesterday there is another incident, I went to NTUC to get some groceries. It was so crowded so definitely there is a long queue at the cashier, right? So i was in queue in the single basket line, and the queue was so damn long, but the waiting time still alright as there's 2 cashier over there to attend. So when it's about my turn there is one stupid auntie came from nowhere and cut the queue.

Than one uncle saw me didn't dare to make any noisy, so he did it. And this stupid bitch dares to say, "Need to queue meh?" than next is "i didn't see there is a queue". Both me and uncle was so pissed. And many people was staring at her and shame her. She still acts nothing and get it done and left. The NTUC cashier also another one, never sees whose is in queue and serve and just served blindly. Also can't be blame, it's really too many people.. how to see..

As for today, slept thru out as my muscle are strained and it's unbearable. But after sleeping my muscle is much better but still pain. I think i really over-strained it. Than dearie told me that he's sick.. i'm so worried.. =( hope he's fine..

2010-05-01T21:50:00.003+08:00

hmm.. this few days i am resting, as after my patient passed away i decided to rest awhile. Cause been having flu and persistent headache. Thinking maybe due to prolong night duty that i've performed that's why it crash my body system.

This 2 days i slept thru out the day, i think i'm seriously very tired, so i slept thru out. That's amazing to me! Such a long time i have such long sleep. I hardly sleep such long hours, maybe i am getting old in some ways? which cause me hard to sleep long hours or even have a good night sleep. Perhaps the late auntie had blessed me to let me sleep well?

I have serveral arguments with dearie, i don't wish to eleborate.. there's no right or wrong when each parties has their own thinking. And may cause each of us, does not understand our point of view that we want to bring it across... Anyway, we are fine now..

hmm.. recently been addicted with some shows.. i was truly fall in love with one korean show called "同伊". Many says that is after "大长金".. Which i fully agrees, but some are different.

同伊 - in fact is a lady name, she is been showered love by her father, elder brother and a brother whom is her elder brother friend. Even though, during the time her family is a poor family, which they called "溅民" but they don't look down of themselves.

During that era, they have different status "royal", "second high class" and "low class" which is that lady family falls in. Also during the era, "low class" people need to slog for their lives and their lives are worthless. So among them it came out a group of people to protect them.

同伊 without realising that her father and brothers are from that group and her father is the leader. One day 3 royal servant been killed brutely and it's been told that is that group of people killed. So the troubles and the story started...

Currently, this show is airing in Korea and having the high rating.. i was impressed and waiting for more videos.. =)

Soon there's more drama i will recommend.. currently watching china drama again... i am so amazed that china drama is so nice to watch.. see ya!

2010-04-27T09:50:00.003+08:00

omg! not again.. forgot plus lazy to update my blog again.. =P

oh well, nothing much has happen to me, so far so good. Just that i am pissed with the patient maid. Treat me as if i am her damn assistant.. never mind, if she going overboard again i'm going to complain her.. just wait and see..!

Went JB with my dearie, ate many food and watch movies there.. And, as usual this weekend will be going there again.. Going to watch Iron man 2 and Yip man 2.. hehehe..! Looking forward!

I'm getting tired.. going to sleep soon.. tonight i am going to work.. =)

2010-04-18T13:25:00.002+08:00

Hee.. Been such a long time i didn't update again.. oh well, been fairly busy recently..

Recently decided to take up night assignment, as understand no ones really likes to take night too.. Cause for girls to take night, it will harm the skin as well you can't have your beauty sleep too.. Not many could tolerate that, even me too!

The reason for me to take nights, cause i do not like to wake up in the morning. I'm more active in the night in fact. Not sure why i'm always like that.. lol..

This time i took this case, this patient is a female auntie, also the same having cancer.. her condition went up and down drastically.. i went to a shock, when she suddenly turn so drowsy and non-responsive anymore. But however, she is still breathing.. i can see that the children is very upset that she may be gone for good.

But seems that the auntie know that, and seems to be dragging.. The children seems to feel that.. I think she wants to accompany them for awhile before leaving this world.. So the family decided to keep some nurses to keep her accompany.. which includes me..

Seems that auntie turns alittle responsive when i am around, which the children witnessed the mircale.. so they would loves me to work with them in a long time basis.. I've told them that, i'm with the agency so need to let them know. And, i can't have private arrangement with the clients itself. So they understand. And fortunately i will be with them this week again.. Hopes she's fine today!..

And yesterday dearie finally took me and my sister to Universal Studio! Awesome.. i loves it to the max.. even my sister did enjoyed the trip there.. But the weather is so HOT! we were sweating like hell..

Ticket!!

Chocolates!

While we were walking in the Universal Studio, we saw a number of dearie's colleague.. they were there so damn early lo.. while we were there somewhere 12pm and they came at 10am instead! OMG! anyway, they seems to have fun too..

The staffs there were friendly and nice too! We went to Shrek 4D theatre.. It's so cool! The effects is so awesome! Can really feels the spider crawling and the story presentation is so cool..

My sister was laughing and loves it too.. =) Also we played the flying dragon coaster.. so fun..! But it's just a short while.. =(

Than we went to the Lost World to have a walk.. intend to play some games, but will need to wait for 1 hr.. we were like.. forget it and walked to Waterworld.. than the staff told us to come back at 4pm to watch the show.. so we decided to come back again..

Thereafter, we went to walk to New york street than we have our lovely lunch.. Everything is so fabulous..! Nice place and environment too.. it so seems like i'm in New York..!

After lunch we head back to Waterworld as been told.. Waited for about 15 mins and we enter the theatre.. It's so magnificant! You have to sit according to your preferences.. "Blue" - you'll get soak, "Green" - you will get wet and "Brown" - Dry area"..

So we went to the dry area, we do not want ourselves to get wet.. lol.. the actors and actress were so entertaining..! kept splashing water and the specetors there enjoyed the fun and let them splash on them.. LOL.. so funny..

Indeed the effects and show were great! did enjoy it to the max!

After all, my sister was telling me that she wants to come back again! we were like.. see how. Cause the ticket wasn't that cheap..! is just that dearie's company eligible to get corporate discount and so we purchase in a cheaper rates..

And we sent my sister back and bought baby clothing for my little niece.. =) That's all..! =)

* Due to too many photos are taken, friends who knows me can have a look for more photos, look in my facebook "Random Mobile uploads 1 and 2" - All photos are taken by my iphone =)

2010-04-07T23:48:00.003+08:00

Today i didn't work as no assignment on hand at the moment.. so decided to rot at home, woke up at some maggie that i've brought back from Batam. Thereafter, i totally knocked out.. lol..

Dearie called me at times to check am i alright, as i told him that my back is hurt.. I told him much better after some resting... than he told me that makes me so happy.. he said, he want to bring me and my sister to universal studio!! i was so damn happy la..!

He told me that, he already booked the tickets! i've yearn going there and yes finally the day is coming..! i felt so bad that i need to rely him so much, as i'm not really working now. Just waiting for something to happen.... but nevertheless, he did ditch me to die alone.. and keep trying to make me happy.. =) which i am touch..!

I'm waiting to go Universal studio!!! la la la.. =P

Tonight, i'm not sure whether will i be able to sleep, cause been sleeping the whole afternoon..! The massage did worked! lol..

Here is tonight snacks and tea i had earlier:

Fabulous..

It's contain of peanut..

Taste fantastic without sugar!

2010-04-06T23:51:00.002+08:00

This gonna going to be a long post.. lol..well, been busy lately.. busy in travelling around with dearie. As this month is our 1 yr anniversary! I'm so happy that we are together for that long. And he's the only one whom i'm putting more effort in this relationship. I feel bad that i couldn't give him anything. Quite broke in fact. =(

Sunday, we went to Selatar Camp there to do prawning. Upon reaching there, we realised that the resort there, you need to be member in order to enjoy the facilities there. Quite disappointing! so we left the place and went to Jln Kayu since is near there.

We stop at one indian shop to eat. And ordered my favourite Maggie Goreng, taste not bad. As for dearie he ordered Mee Kuah and Prata. Than i added another one is the dessert Lychee Sundae..! =)

Here is the photos:

Maggie Goreng, not bad.. loves it!

Dearie's Mee kuah..

Prata.. yum yum.. not that bad.. still prefer bukit batok one..

Dessert, Lychee Sundae! Too sweet for me..

After much, we went to play arcade in CCK than we went back home..

Monday, We've planned to go Batam.. and we met each other and went to batam.. We took Penguin ferry and reach sayupan (not sure it is spell that way).. Than we took a cab to Harris.. one thing is we have made a mistake that we should have not come down from the ferry and should wait for another one.. As there's one more free transport ferry to Harris or Holiday inn..

So no choice we have to take cab and what next to piss me off is that we have to pay SGD 12 for that stupid fare and the Uncle kept following us everywhere we go! I told him not to follow us as we want to do some other things. But he kept following us, and even followed us to do my foot spa there.. T.T isn't it hilarious??!!

I did a foot spa + pedicure which cost about SGD 40 plus.. been given some discount as well. The more funny part is the taxi uncle can wait for 1 hour for us! OMG! We intend to go GO KART, but it looks like going to pour anytime. So we change plan and go Nagoya to do some shopping instead.

Happy Feet!

Than the uncle kept insisting us to take his cab, so no choice no other alternative transport so we took his.. And this cost SGD 15!! WTF!

Upon reaching, we want to shop and walk around. Initally, still fine.. suddenly the uncle pop out from no where and keep asking where are we going!! i'm so angry! than i told him we want to walk don't want to take cab. Than he leaves us for awhile and suddenly pop out again?! Shit.. We wanted to eat also cannot.. he ask us to take cab la.. we say no need.. he still insist. We hack care and walk to a stall and sat down and eat.

After eating, he asked us to sit in the cab! i told him wait for us a the Mac later than take. He still insisted.. i so mad already! and my blood is boiling..! I firmly told him that to go Mac, than he left. And finally have a peace of mind..!

We went around, and i bought a sleeves cloth and some stuff as it's quite cheap..

Here is what dearie bought for me:

We ate their Mac.. not bad too! lol.. But the stupid uncle came out, and i felt damn irritated so i told dearie we quickly head back Singapore. I couldn't stand the F uncle. I scared i might scold him.. So dearie and i took his cab back to Ferry terminal. What even piss is, dearie told him we will pay him rupiah since we have quite alot left. And supposingly is from Harris to Nagoya SGD 15 than Nagoya to Ferry Terminal is SGD 12, so in total is SGD 27 and rupiah should be somewhere 18,000. The uncle charge us 250,000!!!! i nearly faint in the cab..

Dearie so pissed and said it should be SGD 27 so it should be 18,000 rupiah. But he kept saying alot of excuses. And in other words he wants KOPI money. Even like this, it shouldn't that much.. Me and dearie intend to give him 20,000 rupiah. But he asked for more, which dearie don't want to give in.

So, reached terminal he just throw SGD 27 and walk out. But, he forgot i haven't alight and the uncle kept like don't want to let me out from the cab. So i talk loudly i will only give you another SGD 2 take it or leaves it. Than, he takes it. Idiotic people..!

Dearie so mad why i gave extra 2 dollars. I explained and he nearly wanted to punch his face. T.T

Overall, it so unpleasant and we are not going there again, unless someone local is there than we shall consider on going there.. But i still enjoy the foot spa, the gal there so nice.. =)

Back to Singapore, dearie suggested to go Malaysia and so do i.. So we went to JB straight after alight...

Checked-in to our regular hotel and the rest for the day... The next morning, we went to Holiday plaza to shop and than we walked to the favourite porridge stall.. After much, dearie brought me to the near-by house to have a foot reflexology..

It's opened by a Christian/Catholic, and they provide those TCM reflexology. The auntie there guide me on cleaning my feet with water with antiseptic water, and thereafter i met this uncle to have my feet massage.

He used something like a "rhinosaraus horn" related to massage the accupoint. He also asked me which part of my body feeling unwell. So i roughly let him know that i have some flu and back pain not more information been said. Mirically, after pressing (i don't even show that i am in pain) he knows what condition i have. I was so amaze by it..!

He told me what are the things to do or not to do. He also helped me to massage my back, my back nearly break into pieces upon his pressing. He also explained why i have such pain and so on. And, i am so amaze that he really know what condition i have. He also prescibe me some medication to paste of my back. He said only use when i feel pain.

And, another thing is my flu was much much more better. He also mentioned that i couldn't sleep, he also purposely massage the accupoint to make me feel relax. He also suggested me to come regularly to complete the treatment.

Overall, i feel not bad as in after the massage my back feel better and my flu even got better!! It's worth the money and it cost RM23-27 include the "medicated plaster"

After the massage, we went Perma Jaya for prawning. We reached there as usual, dearie took the rod and the bait. Initially, i thought it was some chicken heart or clam. However, something unexpectly i found that it was WORM instead of what i have mentioned eariler...!!! I tell dearie, he don't believe me. And thought that i was joking with him, and he shows a angry face as i put it so near to him.

He saw it and he nearly puke and wanted to run..!! But still, he did the prawning.. In the end, we catch NOTHING! we suspect that we didn't put the bait properly. Instead of catching, dearie fed the prawn.. lol.. meaning we didn't get the correct timing and accidentally let go the prawn.

I nearly faint upon seeing it..!

The prawning at Perma Jaya costed 2 hours + 3 cans of drinks = RM 30.50.. Cheap right?! Singapore where got that cheap prawning? Anyway, dearie and me not going back there, as i cannot tahan the worm as dearie know i already cannot bear seeing the poor prawn struggling for their life, so seeing worm i even more scared..! dearie also cannot take the worm.. so we decided not to go back.. but we will go for the vegetarin that open by former mediacrop actor "xie shau guang".

Thereafter, we went to have some "dim sum".. it taste good! (i forgot to take pics, too hungry) lol.. than we go back home and rest..

During the journey thru and flow i slept soundly.. most likely will go back there for more treatment.. =P

Lastly, here is what dearie bought for me:

Awesome right?! Loves my dearie to the max!! =)

2010-03-31T23:07:00.002+08:00

LOL.. Actually i have no intention to blog today, but however still itchy hand wanna to blog.. =P

Today i worked in East Shore Hospital taking care one patient. Supposed to discharge today, but somehow this old lady is not discharging and my agent told me the wrong room number, as well wrong number been furnished. I was so anxious thinking whether i was been scammed or whatsoever. Cause this is my first time working with this agent. (i'm taking/using 2 agents, so it's easy for me to earn money to cover some expenses.)

Well, still thankfully the staff in East Shore is so deem nice and friendly. He helped me to search the correct room and lead me there. I'm so appreciated!

Upon reaching the room, as usual i introduce myself to the patient and relatives. They feed me all the relavant information regards the patient. However, the patient son was somehow kind of demanding. But i just brush it, perhaps he's anxious to have a new nurse to nurse her beloved mother.

Can't be blamed either, he really dotes his mum and somehow he's sliver spoon as his family is so rich, so there's some arrogant detected.

After taking over, her relatives left, and left me and the old granny. She's somehow adorable but she at times can be nasty. She's dementia so no choice, just like a kid. She make me squat the whole day to massage her, feed her, sayang her and so on. No choice.. =(

Finishing the case, my whole leg so damn pain and reached home i took panadol to ease the pain. The pain indeed eased but the soreness came after it. It so damn ache la..!

I waited for dearie to meet me for dinner and we went to bring muscle cream to apply. Now, least is much better. But still aches..

Brief introduction of East Shore hospital

Formerly known as East Shore Hospital, Parkway East Hospital is a 123-bed private general acute care hospital, with an outreach specialist centre in Eastern Singapore providing a wide range of medical and surgical facilities. Parkway East Hospital has built a loyal niche among residents in Eastern Singapore for its personalised care approach, convenient location and user-friendly services.

Source: East Shore Hospital

*Today finally i faxed the document. Hopefully, they recieved my document and soon after i will know the dates.. pray hard!

2010-03-31T00:23:00.002+08:00

Random things...

Hee, been lazy to blog.. wakaka! and as well, i'm not in the mood to blog either..

My patient had passed away recently, kind of upset.. but however, now i'm feeling much better after dearie brought me to batu pahat..

We went to batu pahat somewhere saturday morning, and thankfully my friend bring me around... of course, we have ate lots of fabulous food.. lol..(didn't take photo, cause lazy!)

After the trip, i didn't accept anymore case.. wanna to rest..! i'm exhausted after the trip.. and some other things.. really tired..!

Anyway, few days ago met dearie at his workplace, and finally gets to eat the "Char siew pork and Roast pork rice".. it's still taste nice, and definitely much better than the rest of the stall i have tasted..

Here is the stall:

this is the awesome rice:

The stall location is at Jurong east.. can't remember the block.. it's the area somewhere my dearie workplace, ST Electronics..

After much, went to collect my letter in SGH than head back home and rest..

Today, not much to update... nothing much to say.. well, don't know why recently i feel terrible exhausted, and it's really makes me feel real lousy..perhaps haven't get over about my previous case.. or some other thing.. tired! really tired!

This is what dearie bought me from Batu Pahat:

Putting on:

Food eaten at JB, "Ke Ren Lai" city square, level 2:

My fruit salad!! awesome!

My favourite.. abacus yam.. :

* just now during dinner, dearie and me was talking.. somehow, my mind went very blank.. and suddenly stop talking to him.. and he thought i am not happy with him as he accidentally pull the food to him.. i wasn't angry, just that don't know why my mind stop functioning, and i also wasn't sure what i have talk..

it never happen to me before.. but it happen during the dinner time.. than, i stone again went walking to clementi mall.. my mind was whirl.. confused..! than blank.. than again whirl.. it's like a mass information coming than blank..

so weird.. and now, my chest damn tight and makes me sick..! not sure what's going on now..! =(

2010-03-21T23:22:00.002+08:00

Today in fact wanted to blog during work, however unable to. As my patient suddenly feeling very bad discomfort and i was drenched in the rain.. T.T

My patient getting bad to worse, and thankfully the family members are all well prepared to the worse. Hopefully what i can do is to help her to ease her suffering and brings comfort to her..

When i sees her, it's like letting me to see my mum.. my sickly mum.. even though i am not in a talking terms with her, but still she is my mum and definitely i am still worries about her. My sister told me that she's fine and nothing happened. Which i feel better when was been told she's getting better instead to the worse.

I felt fortunate that my mum is not to that stage at the moment, but i do hope that she'll seek proper treatment, rather than not seeing any doctor or even giving up the hope of going for operation.

Let's pray for the best..

Yesterday dearie really given me a pleasant surprise by waiting for me outside my patient house. And, he patiently waited for least 45 mins or so.. When the moment i sees him, i was so delighted. Kind of touch.. =P

Cause usually i meet him more than he does, which is applies recently only.. As i'm doing some part time work, unlike last time i'm working full time and he has no choice to come and meet me instead. But due to the recent freedom, i will make a trip down to his office to meet him instead. So it's like a surprise to me to see him there, and it's really hard to find the place, he managed to find it.. I was impressed..!

After meeting him, he suggested to go Ten Mile Junction, Bukit Panjang to have dinner. I agreed. So we headed there, and went to "Ming Yu Tou lu". Dearie says, they are quite famous on their "yu tou lu" i was like.. hmm.. not a bad idea to try. So he ordered, fresh fish soup (which is boneless), Kang Kong, additional "Jin Zen Gu" and lastly comes with "prawn omelette"...

There is several soup for you to choose like, Red Groupa, "bai chang yu" and so on.. than you can add an additional of "Jin Zen Gu", vegetables, and so on.. for your soup to have more ingredient..

Overall, the food is not bad, and i loves the omelette to the best. Seriously hardly you'll be able to see prawn omelette has such big prawn. Unless, you fried it yourself.. Lol..! Here is the photos of the food we ordered:

Kang kong and "jin zen gu"

"Yu tou lu".. nice!

Prawn Omelette..

that is how big of the prawn..

Fantastic chilli sauce.. awesome! loves it!

Total of 40 dollar plus.. 15 dollars for the "yu tou lu" and the rest i can't remember how much does it cost... only remember the total amout is 40 dollars plus..lol =P

After such awesome dinner, we head back home to rest..

During the night, i kept dreaming of a dream.. i remember i dreamt it sometime back, perhaps a few years back. I dreamt that i have a brother, and this brother of mine been following me everywhere. It's seems belong to somewhere. I have no idea when on earth i have a brother. =S

I remembered that in my family, i do not have a elder brother. But this dream i have that i have a elder brother in fact. I was.. utterly speechless..!

It's seem that he's with me for some decades or so.. not sure.. he do not want anyone to have me or something, or something that he wants to reunite with me or something. I was like keeping low, doesn't want him to find me but however he still finds me and insisted to follow me.. I was scared.. (don't know why i have such feelings) But i can sense the kinship is there.. i know he loves me alot..

Even till now, i still can't forget the feeling. I seriously doesn't know what's going on.. I remembered that this feeling can be persisted for some days before it's gone..

Maybe been yearning to have a elder brother to take care of me and so on.. Perhaps because of that it let me dream of that.. That's all i can conclude it..

"Dream is always a dream.."

Time for me to rest.. Today is a hard day.. Cheers! Night everyone..! =)

2010-03-20T10:10:00.004+08:00

Currently i am working and trying to blog while i am free.. =P I found that the patient is getting to the low side and seems that her condition goes downhill real fast..

Last week seeing her, she still looks fine.. But today she seems very lethargic and irritatable, this also show signs of condition that she might leave anytime. Which i believe not now but is sooner or later. Last time, she does not take any medication. But now, different.. the doctor has prescrible several medication to let her feels much better. Somehow, she isn't feeling good. Well, anyway hopes she will get better.. praying for her.. =S

Next week, i won't be working for the moment. Waiting for assignments to come, and if possible i am getting her case again. As the patient daughter would loves the regulars nurse to stay with her. I'm practically alright to have her.. So, let my agent to decide ba..

Dearie is back from Taiwan and he brought me a few things that i have requested upon he left Singapore. And, he made his promise and brought me mask that i would love to have it.

Milk Mask, with collagen.. Histamishu...

He also bought me this before he left Taiwan, as he was been pestered by a lady T.T

Upon his arrival, we went to have some supper at Changi Airport, "popeyes" that's the only place still open. We ordered some food than we hang around the airport to chit chat..

After chit chatting, we took cab home at 4am, and decided that we shall head to JB in the later afternoon.

We met around 1pm plus near his house, and took bus 960 to Ten mile junctions than to JB customs. Along the way, the traffic are quite smooth. No jam at all.

After that, we went to JB city square to have our combine breakfast and lunch at Robin's..

We ordered:

Mine, Chicken wings with the choice of noodle. You can choose rice, noodle or bread.

Dearie's.. Baked Rice..

Both taste not bad.. simply nice..! =)

After our meal, we went for a walk than i told him i want to check whether my chipmunks is it arrived? So i went to "Action City" to check is my "chip" here.. And guess what.. i found my love "Chip" finally.. finally it's here..!

Dearie quickly took it and buy for me on the spot..! loves him so much..! (he knows i been looking this up and down..)

Here is my "chip":

My dale has a buddy!

After that, we head to watch movies, and watched some haunted show.. can't remember the name. That movie scares me alittle.. but still alright.. =P

Than we head for our usual dinner.. and as usual, dearie purposely make me so angry with him.. than he keep apologising all the way back home.. =P

And that's how we spent our time after he's back from Taiwan.. Miss him so much..! =)

2010-03-16T23:18:00.002+08:00

Currently working till very tired.. Somemore, this weekend i will be working again.. T.T going to faint anytime.. lol.. was planning to have some rest after a long working time..

But least this assignment payout can last me for sometime. So long, i don't spend that much.. =P Trying to pamper and reward myself when i work for long hours and so on.. So this will encourage and motivates me to work more..

Dearie is still in Taiwan enjoying his stay and eating there.. T.T.. but he still will make sure to call me to let me know he's fine.. Which that's the most important to me..

Today was such a busy day.. been running around the day surgery theatre. I met a damn arrogant patient, and keep telling that she is some big shoot blah blah blah.. which irks me alot! The centre is so busy like hell, everyone is going for operation, not just her alone is waiting for her operation. I was like so mad with her, somemore she's from the medical side too. Such a disgrace!

Other thing is one of the staff there also act as arrogant, she's from OT itself. I felt that as if i owns her alot of money that's why she gave me such attitude. Imagine, she called me "OI" than i forgive thats.. And, she said in tone like ordering me to do this and that. Even the patient felt that she's so deem rude.. I wonder how she works with her other colleague??

Even best, when my other partner forgets to put some allergy test, she kept staring at me as if i am the one who do wrong.. Somemore keep telling patient how forgetful am i, which irks me! Irritating..!

She's such a bitch! Thinks that she so great! If she's so great, must as well come out and help than you'll know. We are catering many theatre not like you, just one or two theatre. That's not fair!

I'm planning to tell my agent that i'm not going to stay there for long. I do not want to see politics.. I work for myself not for you, and i don't own you. And, you doesn't pay me, so i do not deserve such treatment. And, i have choice to leave anytime. If i were to ask to stay i will gladly to answer sorry, i'm not interested! Seriously, i only want to work with one to one, rather than in the hospitals. Cause, hospitals the politics is so damn jialat!

Perhaps giving myself another 1 to 2 weeks more, than i shall decided again, maybe by than i may change my decision. LOL..

But i'm also worried that my plan may comes anytime from 2 weeks later..

Anyway, after my work i went out to walk for awhile, get some hair treatment and some pimple cream. Nowaday, my hair and face turn quite bad.. Perhaps due to stress.. =P i started using some, it's not bad.. feels good..! will be continue using for the moment till my face and hair got much better.. =P

Now is getting late, tml still have work to do.. bye!

2010-03-15T00:38:00.004+08:00

Hmm.. i think some of you might be thinking what i am working at this very moment...

Tentatively, i am back to nursing and currently accepted a Individual case of a cancer patient. And, i will need to nurse her for 12 hours for the weekends, as well i need to work during the weekdays in SNEC. I'm going to faint.. But if my main plan has the confirmation date, i will stop working and proceed the plan.

Today my tummy is freaking pain, nearly teared in my patient house. But i still bear the pain to work, and thankfully my patient is easy to nurse. She'll help herself abit and she doesn't want to feel useless, so i will let her do whatever she still can do and just make sure she is fine.

Most of the time, she is sleeping as after since her chaemotherapy she's feeling tired. So, i'm able to rest when she's sleeping. Her family doesn't mind me to rest since their mum is resting. So least the pain is not that intense.

I'm pretty worried about tomorrow assignment, however i have rejected tomorrow's assignment as the doctor thinks that my condition doesn't allow me to work. If i were to work, there's potiential that i might faint. Unless is light duty, which maybe taking care individual case might be considerable. So i decided to rest for the moment.

As well, today my patient daughter was saying that how come the nurse kept changing. I told her that i will be more in the weekends rather than the weekdays. However, tml is another nurse and she needs to re-orientate the new nurse and the patient has to re-recognise herself to another nurse. So i suggested, if she's happy with anyone of us, she could request us to stay put as the regular one's. She seems alright to what i have proposed. And, checked whether am i able to do that. I say not a problem, but however she'll still needs to further discuss with my in-charge. If he's agreeable, than every mon-fri i will station and sat-sun will be another one. So it'll be definitely be easy for them.

So i shall see whether i shall nurse them or continues with my hospital assignment...

Now, it's time for me to rest, feeling very tired after the injection on my butt... lol.. night..!

2010-03-11T19:47:00.004+08:00

Jack Neo's News

I was so shocked upon reading this news last week, and just nice my friend posted the linked in FB. Upon reading i feel disgusted with the action of what he has did to the family.

This also reminds me of one incident that happened last year, when i got to know something related with it..

Anyway, my friend was asking will we still watch Jack Neo's movie, my answer is "NO" simply i don't ever watch his movie before. But there is friends still supporting his movie, as they finds it funny. To me, nah.. lol..

My friend said that he only have one, unlike Tiger Woods.. Unforunately, after he say that another one came out.. Which is Foyce than another lady.. Isn't it the same problems occurs as Tiger Woods??

Initally, i thought it was just one, but am wrong.. they suspected there is more ladies were involved. I was utterly speechless..

I can't imagine if my other half did that to me.. I will break down and even worse might end the relationship, as i couldn't tolerate such things happening. And, i will feel he's dirty..

But however, he is so fortunate that his wife is so supportive and still in love with him and family. I was shocked when i heard that his wife forgiven him. I feel that no ladies or woman could have done that.. seriously..!

Just now, i heard that he hold a press conference with his wife to clarify and openly seeking for apologise.. To me i feel that, at the first place you shouldn't have done it, if you still says you still loves your wife. It's so selfish of you to think of having sex without thinking consequences and your wife feelings. I believe she is upset to your behaviour, but still forgives you. Even she's asking the public to bless you and the family. When i saw the wife teared and fainted after the interview my heart shattered into pieces...

I also hope that he sincerely repent to what he has did and not repeat it, or not he seriously going to break his wife heart.

Here is the interview held earlier of the day:

"Entirely to blame" says Jack Neo at drama-filled news conference;
Jack Neo apologised for his actions at a news conference held on Thursday morning.

He arrived at the news conference hand in hand with his wife, Irene Kng, and said he was entirely to blame and began crying.

Earlier reports said he had an affair with a 22-year-old model.

The news conference ended when Mdm Kng started crying. As she was walking off the stage, she fainted. And the photographers and cameramen swamped to the stage to take her photos.

Neo screamed at them to stop filming and get away from her.

One of Neo's colleagues Ah Nan rushed to the stage and also yelled at the photographers and cameramen to get away from Mdm Kng.

Neo's entourage then cordoned them and helped them exit the conference room.

More to come ...
Source: "http://entertainment.sg.msn.com/commented/article.aspx?cp-documentid=3937191"

Video of the Interview, managed to find..T.T:

2010-03-10T23:09:00.003+08:00

仙剑奇侠传3

Currently i am so into this show, which is "Xian Jian 3". Starred by “胡哥”Hu Ge。。

So in love with his show, seriously practically almost all his show he acted i will watch it.. And, this is one of the drama i deem love it. Remembering watching the first one, i already so deeply love this show. When i got to know there is part 3 i'm so excited already.

Especially this part 3 almost all the songs they played i so in love.. Later part, i will post all the songs sang by different singers..

There is a few songs i heard, i nearly teared.. some songs really tells my feeling towards my love to my late father.. although it's more on relationship.. When i am typing this i am hearing the songs and tearing.. I seriously miss my late father badly.. T.T

Here is the short brief on the songs and shows review:

One of the MTV, shows you the each characters bioprofile in cartoon.. One of the character's name "雪见" she's been adopted by one old man who she called "爷爷" passed her a buddy called "花盈" actually it's a adorable creature which can cures many poisons. "景天" loves to call this creature "小家伙". Seriously, it's so deem cute and loveable.. some more when she sleeps got bubbles coming out.. i love it to the max...! i wish i have one... lol..

This song called 忘记时间。

Another song i am posting is called "答应不爱你". It's one of the part about the couple who can't be together, who is "nu wa hou yi, Zi jing" and another chap current life called "Chang qing". This part make me teared, sad ending.. they bid goodbye and never see each other again for the benefits to both of them. As "chang qing" will be going to "天界" after he passed on and "Zi Jing" knew it long time ago and she will eventually die due to old age as she gave birth to her daughter "qing er". This is "nu wa hou yi" destiny, once gave birth they will die due to old age.

"此生不换" this song MTV it's related to the above couple.. (sob sob)

There is a interested quote i picked from youtube reviews:

"如果愛一個人最好的方法是不見他不介入他的生活,那究竟為什麼要認識,為什麼要相愛.
愛情不是唯一,但是要犧牲愛情還是很讓人心痛."

It's mean "if love someone the best way is not to involve in his/her life, than why know him/her at the first place, why love? love is not the only, but if scarifies it will be deem painful" - i understand it's fully.. this ever happen to me once.. during my school days...

But i have my dearie now.. =P cheeky me..XD

Pictures of the couple:

"偏愛" this MTV talking about "景天" and "雪见".. This couple damn funny lo.. both of them eventually fond with each other after getting together to their journey in collecting "灵朱".. They quarrel and fights with each other till "雪见" decides to marry to a guy, who she know in one of the town. Than they finally understands both of them loves each other all along. Right to the end, in fact "景天" will die as he made an agreement with "天帝", "heaven emperor" in order to save the lives and his life will be shorten. And, he agreed.. which is why the end of the video he was shouting he doesn't want to leave..

"生生世世愛" it's the OST of the show, it's also show the each charcter to let you better understand and their overall journey..

"光棍" this song damn funny la.. when there is funny scene will come out.. whenever it come out, i will start laughing.. this lyrics really funny..

"你是我一首唱不完的歌" this melody so nice, it comes out when they are searching of "圣灵朱" . They heard a loving story about one ugly guy with a lady who came from the heaven. This lady was attracted by the song, sang by the ugly chap.. gradually both fall in love. But however, both have not meet each other.. In fact, they met once, but she thought the ugly chap wasn't the guy, she's looking for..

In order this ugly chap to meet her, he decided to trade his time and voice the the devil king. When finally they met each other and it also last time they meet.. He promised her that he will be back in 500 years.. but he didn't return..

Eventually, she turn to a staute and still persist to wait for him to return.. And indeed he return to her side and... (you watch for yourself =P)

Overall, i love this show.. it's much more better than the first one in fact.. And, i really love the cutie creature.. can't find the wallpaper of the cutie.. =(

Lastly let me end with this MTV..

*Pardon me with many typos.. while typing i am so engross with the songs that i've posted.. =P Hope you enjoy the post..!

2010-03-07T01:10:00.003+08:00

Today went out with dearie as usual, i went near to his house to wait for him than we continue to proceed to "Paragon". He wants to sign up Home broadband line and get a free Dell 10.1 inch netbook. We did went to Jurong East but they do not have the stock of black color that he wants. So it was been told that "Paragon" has it.

Met at 10am plus and reached there like 11am.. When we reached there the queue is long.. we were like.... "damn".. But still, we have to wait.. We wait for least 5 mins plus and manage to get to speak to the customer service and told them in fact, we have made reservation on the black netbook and so.. but... we were to ask to wait again!

This time he invited his manager to talk to us, as some problem with dearie plan or something. Not really sure.. About 20 mins plus, than the manager pass the queue number and ask to wait again..! This time even ridiculous.. Waited like more than 30 mins to our turn? I damn dislike waiting in "Paragon" as the queue is always that long. But what to do..

After much, we went to "Suntec Convention Hall" to have a look on career fair.. Nothing much, majority are Training section rather than Recuritment. So we left the hall, we have nothing better to do so we went to look bridal affairs than Travel agency totally run out of ideas so just go and see what they have..lol.. Out of my surprise, dearie told me that one of the Travel agency is one of the bitch were working in.. i was like.. hmmm..

Anyway, not interested to know all this. What i care is the price and the service been rendered by each travel agencies before coming to a decision next time which agency to choose. Or i may just go free and easy and maybe engage my overseas friends for some certain help. Well, shall see that.

After seeing all those, we were tired so we went up to Sky garden to have a chat and at the same time i forgot that i was meeting someone and to pass him something that he would like it, it's a gift from someone. =P Thankfully, he msg me and i sudden recalled the meeting and slow walk with dearie to Starbuck and wait for him.

During his arrival, he straight ask me, what is the thing you want to pass me? And, he roughly knew this gift is from who. When the moment, he un-scroll the poster he was so damn delighted! And, he say he so in love.... with the gift..! hahaha.. He kept looking at it and talking about the game and so on.

And, he bet that his Star Trek members will be jealous of him. Well, it's the purpose to make him happy..

Pictures taken in Starbucks..

Than, he bring out his camera keep taking the pictures.. and continue admire the poster..! How adorable isn't it? haha..! I bet the person who gave him the poster will be delighted too..! And, i told him to blog it so the other party knows that he loves it.. He agreed!

We chatted for very long, as i have lots of questions and dearie has some doubts with some harassment thingy. So he became our advisers of the day..! How great to have such friend whom willing to advise..?

Thereafter the chatting session, all of us headed back home and bid goodbye, me and dearie took bus and he took MRT home. Me and dearie reached to a coffeeshop to have some supper as both of us didn't took dinner earlier. After eating than we head back home.

Today's lunch in Marina Square, "Jia Xiang mian"

Taste not bad, but we feel the MSG in action.. As we have urge to drink plenty of water..!

Currently, i am still wondering whether to take up a Home broadband as my mobile on broadband keep fails me.. Still deciding..!

Lastly, some updates on my arm.. still having the god-damn bruises..!

2010-03-04T23:36:00.002+08:00

Hee.. back to blogging, will try to update blog as much till i'm super busy with stuffs, which maybe once in a month or twice than i will update once. Depends on my scedule like..

Well, i am so intro a drama called "Fringe", it was thru the recommendation of dearie. Most of you guys should know he's very scientific person and will explain things in scienctific ways, unless he sees by himself. I used to be a little supersitious or more than that, but however after knowing so many friends and under their influences i learned things in the other way. Seeing things at the different angle. The most influencial person is from dearie, we have debate lots of things or even went into arugment, due to we see things very different. But however, i told myself to also see at his point of view, which slowly i opens up to discuss.

Sometime, some arugments is good to learn from each other, also we know we couldn't force one and another to believe what i have see or what you have see. This was learn thru a interesting friend. =)

Back to the drama, dearie always telling me how interesting is the drama is, but i do not have the time to have a look of it. But today, i decided to bring myself to watch this drama and seriously i am addicted to it. It's says about UFO, mutation, and so on which sometimes science couldn't really explained it. However, this show trys to make things or even show the answer in a scienctific ways. I was amaze watching this show..! If wasn't dearie keep talking about this show, i wouldn't have to know there is such great drama.. (currently i am watching season 2)

There is a few characters which pretty much cute, like:

Peter Bishop - Consultant in FBI (Fringe), he's son of Walter Bishop.

Walter Bishop - Fringe scientist/forensic doctor, he has his own way to explain by using physic and so on with his son Peter help.

Agent Dunham - Special FBI agent (Fringe), She went thru several series of going in and out from another side of the universe and met Willam Bells who previously owned "Massive Dynamic". She was also been told that she is the strongest person who manage to travel between in the both universe and wants her to find a guy and stop the universe been collision.

Agent Brolyes - Head of Special FBI Agent (Fringe), he leads the department and cracks lots of cases with the help of Walter and Peter Bishop and Agent Dunham.

Ninja Sharp - "Massive Dynamic" owner.. i am not sure of her.. she is been helping Agent Dunham by providing technology information.

This few people which i feels very interesting, especially the Bishops family. At first, i didn't realise they are father and son as they talk to each other as though as a friend or colleague. Until, one of the episode they called father and son, than i realise their relationship. T.T Same goes to Agent Dunham, funny and agressive lady.

Well, you may want to see the drama online if you are interested to know more about UFO, mutation and so on, you can watch it..Especially sees them how they crack their case by doing experiment and use science to explain every single thing.. This show is really awesome..!

Got to go.. bye!

2010-03-03T22:40:00.002+08:00

Hmm.. been having fever this few days.. not sure what is the cause, i suspect is the whether and the things i have ate.. Stupid..! Kept eating the wrong thing to the stomach.. =(

I also thinks that perhaps due to recent stress that i am having, hope that it'll resolve in no time.. Also counting the days and left only 2 weeks plus, and i have to prepare lots of things.. seek advises from friend.. And indeed, he helped me alot by advising me lots of thing.. i am delighted that i have this friend.. =)

But stress is still there.. i'm struggling still.. i suspect main reason is due to my current work, suffered lot.. One of my colleague understand how does it feels like when a superior keep irritates you when you have tried all the best and kept saying that i am not good and so on.. sometimes i think to the positive maybe in some ways she wants me to strive better.. But.. doesn't know how to eleborate.. well anyway, soon i will be out of the place and leave to a better place..

I'm waiting for the time to come.. yippee!!

2010-03-01T23:42:00.003+08:00

After so long, i am back for blogging..

Been busy working and preparing my incoming stuffs.. so overwhelmed! Well, not going to say till everything is affirmed! Definitely not flying with dearie to TAIWAN! Have to say this, or not people PRESUME to be that way. I detest people for been assuming things, when is not that way..!

When time comes you guys should know.. will be away for sometime.. been praying everything is fine no other changes..! i am praying very hard. Dearie will miss me as it's really a period that i won't be around with him.. well.. feeling sad also =(

Some of my closest friends already know what is happening, and one of them really been a good listener and also to help me in some ways.. =)

Last friday, we had a private gathering chatting lots of things, they cheered me up as i was so stress with alot of things.. advise also been given.. thereafter, dearie joined in the chat and everything ended quite late..

By the time we reached home, it's been very late..

Saturday - I went to RMG (Raffles Medical Group) for a medical clearance as required. I forgot to bring my specs, so the nurse asked me to come another day to clear the eye test. So i agreed! But she said for the other test can be all done today. So i proceed on with the blood test and so on.

The phelbo who took my blood really silly.. in sense of asked me to grab the stress ball and she poke my vein.. do you know it's so damn pain, and what's happen next is i have a very bad bruise right after the blood taking..

So pain lo..

Thereafter, i went for a breakfast as i skip my breakfast in order to do the clearance.. Than called dearie to see where he wants to meet. We decided to head to Bishan J8 as there's SPF career fair.. I reached there at 1pm as we supposed to meet at that time, but dearie was very late.. he came nearly 2pm.. =( so angry..! But he did explained and forgive him.. but i was quite tired, as i woke up pretty early.. which is somewhere 6am plus..

After bishan, dearie suggested to go Selatar to have Baffalo wings.. so i agreed and went there.. The journey over there is so DAMN FAR! Is highly impossible to walk lo.. BUT we managed too!

I told dearie that we will need to take by car, as it's too far to walk.. after walking both of us are totally drained and the weather is so damn HOT! i nearly fainted.. It's like more that 4km walk..

Well, we reached and ordered cold drinks that level 5 Baffalo wings..

it's so damn hot!

finished!

After finished the dinner, dearie suggesting to go JB so i agreed.. we need to spend more time, as in the future i won't have much time for him.. =( so we headed home and grab our passport and went to JB..

We reached our usual hotel and chat a little.. plan a few things.. than we slept.. The next day, we went to eat pig kidney bee hoon.. (in love with it) than went to eat "ya wang".. And than, we catch a movie, watch Book of Eli.. It's talking about christianity.. saying having faith to god and you will be protect by god.. Here is the rough review:

"There is a person called Eli, he heard a voice telling him to head to the west and protect the bible as it's the only bible left after the world been destructed and the voice told him that he will be protected and the path is been prepared for him.

So he believe what he heard, picked up the bible and head to the west. During his journey, he been true many happening and many things he does was out of imagination. He was really somehow been protected. Even the bullets can't shoot him..!

He met a girl and they stick together to protect the last bible, as the is one nortourios guy wanted this bible to restruct the world and gain his power. He find all means to get it.. one day he really gets it by ambush Eli. Eli nearly die as he decided to save the girl and give the bible to the guy.

However, he realised that saving a person without having a greed or selfish mind, the god will still help him. And, he learned that by doing this is correct. Both of them continue the journey, even though they lost the bible. Despite, Eli was badly injured and they managed to reach to the place where god has lead him too..

He told the person to take down the bible content as he read it almost everyday, without fail! at the other side, the guy trying his best to open the bible as it was locked! The engineer unlocked the book and he realised that only a blind person can read..! He asked a blind gal to read, when she touches the book she was elated! And, she suddenly told the guy that she can't recall how to read as she god has enlighten her and she told the guy that is wrong to gain power by sacrisfy so many people the greed of him has caused him to lost even more.

Than, he was frighten to and he saw that his army has turn against each other.. and.. he lost all his things...

Eli was still telling the content of the bible to the person till it fully published to teach the people. And, he passed away after he accomplish whatsoever duty which was been given by god. He also prayed for his partner and prays that she will get protected as what god been given to him. "

I was so impressed by it.. even though i am not a christian.. I believe that which ever god you pray or have faith with, they will protect you whenever you go.. =) Importantly, with your sincere heart.. no greed, no selfishness, no jealousy be more grateful what you have and be gracefully..

After the show, we went coffee bean to chill and i ordered Tiramisu.. i love..

so love.. my dearie ordered for me!

Than we head to eat some dinner before coming back to Singapore..

After much, we head back to Singapore and rest..

Today i was sick and having fever.. =( been given 2 days mcs to rest.. hopefully will recover by tomorrow.. =S That's all folks! =)

2010-02-21T03:26:00.002+08:00

Yesterday we went to meet up his friends and gather in his friend house to have a lovely lunch. His friends are loveable and loves to crack jokes .. which amuse me alot! Thereafter, they played cards game which i am not allow to play with and i am not really interested in cards in fact.

After much, we went to Kambangan Mrt station to meet captain as he promised me to drive me to the meeting point, so we practically reached there pretty early as arranged. Than came with 2 other friends, both of them just came back from overseas. Along the journey, we crack lots of jokes and never forgets to disturb my lovely friend, captain! lol..

While we reach there, and we were too early to sit into Canadian pizza, so one of my friend suggested to sit somewhere to have a drink and carry on our conversation. So we headed to a coffeeshop and drink. After awhile, we saw another friend just walked pass and we called her to sit in as well.

Slowly there is more people coming, so we went back to Canadian Pizza there to sit down and start our lovely meal. They ordered so much food, which nearly burst my tummy. And, i feel that i am getting fatter! OMG! Than slowly more people join in..

After the meal, me , dearie and another friend decided to leave early as the following day we have something else to do. And, i'm in rush to get back home to collect an important mail. However, out from no where one hell of a bitch came and make/ or create a scene.

I was pretty amaze that she is reading my blog! oh my! i didn't know that i have a fan reading it.. But somehow or rather she twisted her words.. here it's go (i was not engaging in the conversation, as i feel it's doesn't involve me. It's between dearie and her problem but seems she wants to invite me in the argument.):

Conversation between her and dearie. And, i was standing beside them:

"i understand from qr blog (which is me) that you are going to taiwan together. Which means you are able to pay me the money that you have owned since last yr CNY"

* i amend abit, as she said even worse than what i've stated.

Here is my reply to you, since you are reading:

if you have eyes to read it properly, i have state that i wasn't going and dearie will be the only one who is going to the trip. I have also mentioned that i have no money to accompany him. So i believe your eyes have some problem or you may overlooked it and presume the other way. So my advise to you, please wear a glass and check properly before accusing this.

Conversation with dearie again:

"if you have money to go to the trip, than you should have money to pay me, and i have been smsing you and email you, but you did not reply"

My replies to you:

He has been telling you how much you want (according to the last conversation somewhere in April'09) you have not even state how much you want to get from him. And, now you were saying that why didn't he respond back. (i find it amuse)

And, he did msn you to ask you again.. but there is no reply.

Do you know he has prepared the money sometime ago and waiting for your HONOURABLE reply, but you didn't even bother to state the amount. So what's the point of saying this now in front of people. Want people to think he doesn't want to reply you and run away? If he were to do that, i don't think he will comes for today's gathering.

Come on, you need may be busy.. so do him.. he has been OTing don't know how long. And, at times he don't even have time to accompany me. So should i shout and say till he don't even accompany me nor reply me? - ridiculous isn't it?

***

Here is what i feel:

I remember you told dearie that NOT TO involve me in the matter and say that this matter is between you and him. So what's the matter with you by pulling me in again. Whereby all this while i couldn't be bothered with this issue? - i feels that there isn't a need to drag me in.

And, i remember you were asking people to be in your witness.. So are you telling me you want all the MEMBERS to know what is going on between you and dearie? - Isn't it contridicting enough to what you've said eariler to dearie?

Do you think by saying about reading my blog or wording that meant to piss me and i will engage a fight/ or quarrel with you? My answer to you is NO, reason simple as that i will NOT engage as that ISN'T my problem. It's between you and him, if i were to involve in the arugement, things will get even more complicated and far beyond your imagination or even more facts will be tell out to everyone to know what you have said much much earlier. So by keeping things short and simple, PLEASE SETTLE IT YOUR OWN AND BY NOT DRAGGING MORE UNECESSARY PEOPLE IN! - which i feels that you are pulling your status down by letting more people know what kind of person you are. "If" you still wants to let people to have good image or even respect you. Please watch your own attitude.

If you were to settle it long ago, i think you will not be struggling with whatsoever financial problems that you have mentioned to dearie. In fact, I have been doing my part to remind him about the returning of your money. But seems that you have not giving an answer what you how much you want?

If you are so in need of money, why couldn't you say the exact amount you want? Isn't it so simple? Why should you need to make things so complex when things can be simplifed by stating how much you want. - simple? or too complex for you?

Since you have stated how much you want, so please do whatever dearie have been requested you to do, just by sending an email saying that you've agreed that amount, as an acknowledge. Which i feels much safer that at least things are going to the right track. And, it's protecting the both of you. So no one's are to denie anything. Your cooperation is much appreciated!

***

To others who might have seen:

If you don't even know what's going on, it's the best for YOU not to involve the matter. As this is their problem (i don't even involve and why should you trying to POKE the matter?). I don't see the point whereby you doesn't even know what exactly has happen and acting trying to help. Which i feels that you are too naive. If you do not see it for yourself and even experenience it, so please don't be so KPO!

Your Kaypo-ness is not appreciate for such cases! please use your TALENT somewhere else! THANKS!

*i am not trying to engage anymore argument and i am just pouring out what i want to say. If you don't like it, you can jolly well leave MY blog!

* to the kaypo's - please bear in mind, this isn't your problem, so please do not get unnecessary involvement. If you would want to, i would suggest get something better else to do rather than make the matter worse. Thanks!

2010-02-17T16:56:00.002+08:00

Yesterday dearie and i went out to our friend house, thereafter we went to have our dinner.. Before that we went to CCK arcade to play some games, this love he woke up so late.. And, suppose to meet to go to one of my friend house. But he woke up late so we change plan..

Played Melty Blood, i used the most gay character and won 5 matches! Dearie lost 3 match and other 2 matches won from a lady.. But what irritates me is this lady totally doesn't know how to play, and that's fine with me.. cause i am not a good player either.. However, she's like anyhow play.. i was standing there expecting her to kill me..

Instead of that, she stand another side and do stun whereby i was standing the other side watiting for her to attack me..! T.T I was so piss i went to whack her and let her die.. or not, the game forever will never end.

After the games, we went to my friend house and watch videos from my other friend recommendation than head back home..

Dearie accompany me awhile than he also went back to rest..

oh yeah, the day before on the 15 Feb 10 i met a friend as he suggested to go Labrador Park to do some exploration.. I agreed, since i have nothing much to do.. So met him 10 plus than have breakfast by 11am we head straight to the destination.

Here is where we cover, Enjoy the photos:

Inner of the 6 inch cannon!

This scares the hell out of me!

This tunnel needs to pay money.. T.T

That's all!! =)

2010-02-14T14:06:00.002+08:00

Happy Chinese Year guys! 恭喜发财！

Yesterday went to meet my brother and went to his house to have reunion dinner. They are friendly bunch of people. They understand and they invited me to their house to eat.. i was so delighted and warm, after so long i feel family love. Even though, it's not like having abalone or whatsoever, when they get me delicious dishes,I was so touched already! And, feels everything is delicious! (but honestly, the whole dishes taste damn nice) I have never feel this such family love after my dad passed away for so long! Thanks to my brother, to let me have a feel of family love which i yearn for years! *crying*

Dearie understand and sent me to my brother house. Thereafter, he went back home as the following day he needs to go to Malaysia..

Than after dinner, i went to play with his dog.. wakaka! damn funny! i didn't took any photos, cause i was so exciting playing with the doggy! the dog, so funny keep wanted to go under my dress made me got to hold his head. LOL! My brother was playing his computer, while i playing with his dog..!

He realised that the dog been so mischevious, he spank the doggy butt than the doggy left me alone for least 30 mins than my bro went to shower than i occupied his computer..! than his big bro was just right outside the room complaining that the computer got problem. Than i have an idea that to tell my bro to let my dearie to earn money. *giggle*

After he is out, and he changed his clothes.. all of us left the house his big bro and his wife went to bishan to look for other relatives. While me and my bro went to Northpoint to buy his new clothes..

My this bro, like girl lo.. buy one clothes can be so damn choosy! buay tahan..! everything must be handsome one..! fainted! well, once in awhile i got a chance to meet him nia.. so ok la, he's forgiven! he bought a few pieces for his other bro (who is my friend as well).. Some of it, i chose.. cause the girly man out of idea..

After purchasing the clothes, we went back to his house to put his clothes.. than his doggy saw him comes back, the dog so damn excited! He release him for awhile, and the doggy follow him everywhere.. The funniest part, the doggy knows that he's about to leave home and he will catch him to put him back to his cage..

So the dog ran the whole living room..! My bro just stand there, "you run lo, you think it's so big for you to hide is it?" So eventually, the doggy been caught and place back to his cage.. LOL! So damn funny la!

We head to MRT station, than he told me we are going to go praying so i ok la.. slowly reach there, he told me they inviting "dua li ah pek" and do some fortune thingy.. In my mind, i was like ..

We went all the way to Penjuru, don't know where.. it's freaks me out! Eventually, slowly they inviting "ah pek" i almost head going to burst..! i try to tahan..!

I msg dearie.. and told him this.. he rush out from his house to pick me back home..

Than my bro friend asked me to sit behind than i feel much better than they pass me some papers to write for praying.. after writing "ah pek" chop some paper... than we went to pray and chop our shirts.. and pray "tiger spirit" and i burn off everything..!

But.. i was tearing like shit! than his friend asked me to wash my face.. than my bro were saying why am i crying..? i was dotz! Anyway, i quicken to go back home and took a flower water to go back bath. Dearie face abit went black liao.. omg!

But i know he's out of concern.. slowly he's ok we went plaza to buy mac than straight to my house.. I bath with the flower water than chit chat with dearie than he went back..

I was so delighted that dearie accompany me awhile, cause that time already pass 12 it's valentine's day! *shy*

***

Sometimes i wonder what's love to some others.. They proclaims saying they won't fall in love, but eventually they were like.. "don't dare to comment much".. and yet they dare to say others.. which i feels been amuse by it..

Sometimes when they are in a relationship, they were thinking otherwise..

so what do you mean of love? - isn't it ridiculous?

I wasn't sure what are they thinking of..? Perhaps otherwise..

***

I am forunate to have dearie to care for me, understands me, love me and protect me.. Even though, we always aruge with each other, but i still loves you..! You always encourage me, you always tries to accompany me as much as you can.. you bought things what i like.. even i can't afford to get you anything, you didn't even said a word..! i really appreciate what you have done, what you have given me..! Your effort never gone to waste..

Even you are not that rich, can't fulfil given me luxiours life that you trying to give me.. But every single things you do, it's more than giving me luxirous stuffs.. by giving me all your love is more than enough..

Wasn't sure have you read the email i've sent to you much earlier, but i want to say it again to you.. my love, i love you always! =)

Thanks for been with me all this while and hope we can strive for the better in our near future.. Happy Valentine's day!

***

2010-02-11T23:08:00.003+08:00

Regards the last 2 days i dreamt one bitch, whom i hated most. I wonder why i dreamt of that f**king bitch. But anyway, i slapped her for the shit she did and remembering what she have said.. She makes me even hate her, even thought it already past..

I'm not suppose to hate anyone, due to my learning.. But however, i couldn't forgive those who never have a sincere heart to seek for forgiveness, which irks me alot! I have tried my best forgiving this kind of people, but they failed to learn.. Instead turning to the better, they turn to the worse.

Well, i can't do anything.. i won't curse them but to see what they will happen if they don't repent for their mistakes..

Anyway, forget about it..

Dearie been so busy lately, couldn't meet me.. But thankfully i have a awesome friend to entertain me..! He's a great friend definitely! However, he forgot my age and thought i am older than him *humph* he's the one who older than me lo..

Well, thanks to him i am not bored.. But on another hand, dearie was sick without telling me till i called him than he told me. I'm such a failure, didn't realise he's not feeling well at all.

Aww! than i secretly went to buy some meds, and tells him that i am looking for him.. and pass him the meds comes with vitamin c.. that's all i can do for him at least. Than he say wants to eat, and followed him..After our dinner than we head to arcade and play games..

While he's playing game, i was msning with a few friends via my iphone.. so damn crazy! keep typo.. the keypad damn small lo.. Msning them all the way back home..

Than knock off to bed.. lol..

Today my colleague's bought something special and this is the photo i took:

it's so damn cute..!

cute isn't it..! Not many places selling this, and my colleagues manage to get the god damn last box.. *argh*

Anyway, i don't eat that.. i think i will display more than wanted to eat that.. haha..!

hmm.. getting to sleep soon! Happy Lunar New Year to all of you..! =)

2010-02-09T14:42:00.003+08:00

Few days ago, went to sembawang to have our buffalo wings.. In fact, they have another branch at selatar, but dearie feels that sembawang one's might be much easier to locate. And, indeed it's so easy to locate. It's just right opposite sembawang park, situated at Andrew Ave, just a few walks away you'll see the restaurant. It's pretty obvious, sembawang branch they name it as Buckaroo.

There famous dish is "buffalo wings".. This is the wings.. and i chose level 3..

Taste just right, with sourness and bitterness taste and still can have the taste of chicken. Overall, not bad.

There is about 10 level over in sembawang, and according in selatar they have up to level 30!! crazy!! you may wish to log in to this blog to read more:sheylara.com she have explained pretty well on the wings..!

Level 3 wings, taste just right.. if you're not a spicy eater i advise you stick with level 1 or 2.. Even the waiter themselves never go more than level 3... lol.. to me i can go slightly higher, cause i still take it higher level.. perhaps level 4.. haha.. will be trying some other day..

This is the interior of the restaurant (sembawang):

i feel this is freaking cute, so i took the photo.. the waiter is so damn nice, chatting with us, to see whether are we able to take the spicy.. Dearie was telling that he go even higher cause it's not spicy enough for him. The waiter was saying that he was worried that we couldn't take the spicy, cause he himself only can take it to level 2...

After the wings, i still feel hungry.. perhaps the wings induced my appetite so i ordered this:

BBQ Pork Ribs!! Taste damn nice!! I love the taste and the wedges..! Me and dearie finished it.. Fabulous! The pork ribs looks so fat is unlike other restaurant serve the skinny type pork rib.. but this they serve such a thick portion. It's so awesome!

Dearie was saying that next round we shall head to selatar side, and i agree.. i want more wings..! Will take more photos next round..!

2010-02-07T15:00:00.002+08:00

Lol.. Yesterday night went to meet my friends and played L4D2.. it's been a long time playing L4D... yesterday night was a great game, and indeed have great fun playing with my gang of friends. Loves hanging out with them.

Their loveable people whom i know them in the club. And, unlike others will think of backstabbing and so on.. think of it, it irks! Totally disgusted thinking of it..! Enough talking about those irritating people.

There's so much changes, the character has changed as well.. Unlike the old version.. My skill was rusty, so need my friends to guide me along and there is so much changes in zombies as well!! omg!! In additional of, "Spitter", "Jockey" and "Charger", i was relatively confused of using it. But thanks to Justin, he taught me the different of it and teach me how to use it.. So, it's improving alittle *i think so..*

And the maps there is changes as well, "Swamp fever", "The parish" and so on.. But we mainly playing this map:

So exciting!

I think i also kept shooting my teammates, cause i was too overwhelmed with the coming.. hahaha!!

Come to my surprise is my dearie came and played with me too.. hee XD .. somemore he is zombie to kill me.. *humph* but in the end, he changed to the same team with me.. =P

Well.. basically have a great fun with them, and i want more! it's so exciting playing!!! =)

2010-02-02T12:28:00.002+08:00

blogging in my workplace.. cause i really need to vent out my feelings before i gets crazy.. Today i was telling dearie about something, regards to someone who has hurted me badly. And i told him my feelings..

... he gave me replies like were very cold?? as if i am at fault..? i wasn't sure.. just wanna to say it out as he told me that if anything just let him know.. but he was like saying:

"forget what i say, what i did and helped you"

My heart shattered into pieces when i saw the sms.. i know i am weak in some sense, i just need some encouragement words rather than such disappointing sentence from you. It's hurts me..!

I know i am dumb, i know i am hot-tempered, does i deserve that..? what i need from you is understanding.. but think you have given me..??

And, the next reply from you was:

"i have done my part, finish"

That's even make my heart even more pain.. Than more replies were:

"i think i am tired, i need to rest"

So what's that means? i don't dare to intepret or misunderstand what you've said. Cause, it's enough of the misunderstanding we had.

I am crying but no ones know.. my eyes were red, my heart is broken.. i am tired also.. who should i do? I don't dare to think more.. just that i need an answer.. perhaps.. i am confsued.. don't want to think.. i am not feeling well.. perhaps..

Well.. let pray for the better..

2010-01-31T21:22:00.002+08:00

Hmm, went to JB over the weekend.. Watch movies and ate there, well there is funny things happening there. During the night, after our usual dinner, we walked to city square to watch movie. On the way, we saw a gang of malays pass by us, thereafter a gang of chinese came by and start chasing the malay group... we were puzzling, till the chinese were shouting, robbing in malay.. than we realise that, that bunch of people stolen things from that group of chinese.

It happens real slow, till one of them shouted and chase the gang.. in the end what happen we were not sure, as we have already walk pretty far from them..

Then after our show, we came out from city square and intend to go back to hotel, there's some road block over near the little india (JB).. zZz don't understand recently they been setting those road blocks for.. even we saw dog's unit were out too, when it was sometime ago. People just crowded there and see show.. For us, purely can't be bothered, so long they don't give us problems we will be much happier. lol..

Than today we went to watch movie than head back home, dearie came to my house and clean my fan and clear some of the rubbish.. Now my house is much more neatier lo.. lol.. =) After much cleaning we went to have dinner and now.. time for me to rest too..

* this 2 days, i've been dreaming very weird stuffs.. what i am seeing are all in the past. Not sure what this tells? So weird.. and the feelings is been there for so many times, when comes in the night i kept recalling.. It's so weird.. just same like what happened when i was young....

2010-01-26T21:04:00.003+08:00

So freaking tired.. Today been busy doing business plan for directors..

And, once i come back i saw my mails are all in the mess, freaking irritating!! Imagine, once i pick up the call clients start to question where is there letter..! i was so irritated by it! irks!

I told my colleague what happen, she understands.. i was like, how har.. what to do with her.. Don't know la, let my boss to settle with her. Heck cares!

Now waiting for dearie to pass me the Hospitalize leave.. he's so busy.. =( got to go, i am tired to blog now..

2010-01-25T16:51:00.003+08:00

Today after i stop the medication, my tummy is much more better.. =) phew! meaning i spot on and suspect it right. Luckily, i stop immediately!! Tml i will resume work! Isn't it sounds great? hee=)

Anyway, i was so delighted that i pick a call from somewhere and it consider a good news to me! But was been told will re-arrange the meeting, as i wasn't been inform earlier on. So i will be expecting another sms or call from them. I also sent an email to update my number, in case i don't recieve it again. I do not want any good apporunity to slip off my hand, it's not easy to get what i want, and it's took me lots of courage to do that. Thanks to some of you, for giving me such courage. Now I'll need to be more patience again to wait for further calls. - i'll not tell yet, till everything more or less settle down..! only a few of friends know what has happen.. *giggle*

Hmm.. just contact dearie, today he's too busy so won't be meeting me.. don't understand why this company so sucks, kept bullying him! Moreover, he's the only IT support desk.. the other of his colleagues are not really doing the exactly thing with him.. One does server, the one helping his boss to do some software thingy.. than left him alone to support the whole company PC's.. isn't it too ridiculous?? Imagine, the whole company head count is like more than 30 paxs, if everyday and everybody PC's spoil + laptops.. i think it's more than enough to kill him..

If there is not much case, than still alright la.. but he always OT so frequently and no OT pay somemore.. *argh* irritating company.. But what to do, times are bad.. can't expect him to change his job just like this, it will not be fair for him to leave without sercuring another job. What i can do here, is to pray for him to get his new job faster and higher pay to awaits him..

Now, is my turn to think what should i eat for today, at least now i am not diarrhea-ing anymore.. hee =) .. i was so upset that yesterday i ate such great food, but in the end left more than half a portion of food. But never mind, there's alway a next time to visit there.. =)

2010-01-25T00:00:00.003+08:00

That's so crazy! I thought i have feel much better after what's going on lately..

..But no! Today i run to toilet so many times ever since from my morning post till now.. I have been running to toilet like 5 times or more.. i lost count already.. Whatever i ate; whatever cames out from my bottom! Damn!

I wasn't sure is it one of the medication causes the effect, but while i was in the hospital taking this medication till saturday it was perfectly fine. However, today it's went so haywire that i keep running to toilet. Imagine i was out just now in AMK, i ran 2 times or more toilets.. practically i went almost every level of the toilet.

After dearie finish his work in AMK, we went to thomson road to have our dinner.. The moment i drank the drink my tummy starts to pain.. But i still continue to order my food, after eating a few mouths i know the worst is coming.. i went to toilet again!!!! After coming out, i totally lost my appeitite and i pass to dearie to eat..! >.<

I have changed my mixpod songs and the one i like most is "the myth- by hu ge" the melody is almost the same as jackie chan's one but the lyrics has some changes..

Storyline is almost the same, just that it turns to tv drama..

These are the photos for the drama..

This is Bai Bing Bing, 玉淑

This is 蒙恬, my favourite general.. adores him alot..

Photos credit to "http://www.spcnet.tv/forums/showthread.php?t=26624"

Another show i likes is "gong xin ji".. Another nice show, it's from Hong Kong TVB Tv drama show.. The storyline is almost the same as "da chang jin"..

Here are the photos of the drama:

This is the top 2 drama i am watching.. there is more, will try to update more when time comes.. now, i need to rest.. my tummy is super painful..